Deesse de Feu (goddess of Fire)
I STRAIGHTENED MY HAIR TODAY!!! Woo-hoo! Party in a box, right? Well I’m extremely bored…and i’m pissed off because I had this page all pretty and stuff and then it went and messed up… oh well.. it was my fault anyways.
I don’t like my hair straightened, cuz FIRST it takes way to long to do then second of all it never looks right. of course, it’s not right cuz it’s supposed to be curly! I do like the way it looks pulled back into a pony-tail but I don’t know if I’ll do that yet. My curly hair bugs me sometimes though
I heard on TV one time that people don’t take women with curly hair seriously, and that is such a lie! I mean , everyone I know takes me seriously because I’m educated and my hair has nothing to do with it at all. But, like, how awful would it be if that was true?
This reminds me to tell you people what Todd h. said two nights ago. I told him about the “Pool Incident” when I was four. And I was telling him how to everyone else it was no big deal, and no one actually heard the life guard say that except for my dad and myself, I didn’t cry at the time or anything, but now… it’s such a bad memory. Ya know? It’s like even as I was telling him I was crying and
IT SUCKED AND MADE NO SENSE AT ALL
But then, what he said in reply to that… it was just awesome. He totally summed up my feelings on the whole issue. He said that “So, you weren’t able to do what you wanted to do then and you decided that that you would never have to miss out on something you wanted to do again?” And as I heard him say that it was like “Woah, that’s exactly how I was feeling.
Who would’ve thought that that event would’ve been so small in an amount of time, but the shame i experienced during it would affect the entire rest of my life. Man…what if every event had that kind of power, or maybe…it does?
Memories are very weird like that though… the way that they stick in your head so clearly sometimes. Like, when I was around 3 and Grandma and Grandpa on my dad’s side would have me spend the night at their house then we’d go stop at the B&B and i’d get vanilla ice-cream in a cake cone and they’d tell me not to bite the bottom off but I always did, and yet they still bought me one the next time i was at there house. I love grandparents.
It sucks that I haven’t had a grandparent since the age of 8. That is another memory that is SO clear in my mind. The day that Grandma Margie died was August 5, 1995 and I remember it so well because it was a Friday and the last day of VBS at Trinity Lutheran Church. Mom told me and I was standing in the dining room next to the movie case, and I just couldn’t grasp the concept, and I cried then, and then I had to get ready to go. Mom said that I could stay home and skip the last day if I wanted but I said that I wanted to go because I wanted to see if we had filled up the entire wall with cans to help the poor african children. So I went over to the neighbors and no one knew yet, and if they did no one said anything. I hate that…
IF SOMEONE KNOWS THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH YOU THEY SHOULD AT LEAST FUCKING SAY “ARE YOU OKAY?”
How hard is that??? but anyways we were in the maroon Toyota Previa and we were listening to Ace of Base and I remember the exact song that was playing.. but I couldn’t tell ya the name of it. And I felt like I was going to cry but then I didn’t. and later at VBS we were all singing around the piano like we did every day and it was like everything going on was so fucking normal and it shouldn’t of been like that. Because things WERE NOT NORMAL and no one seemed to notice, no one seeemed to care. Luckily though I have 8 years of my life that I spent with her, where as Devon only has 4 years with her and only a few days or months with the other Grandparents.
I think that I got a lot of the things I enjoy from experiences with my grandparents. Like the way i love to read is because my grandpa harold always used to sit me on his lap and read to me. In fact, I still have my to favorite books that he read to me. One was “the childrens bible” and the other was “baby’s house” Baby’s house should be a classic. It practically is. It’s about 4 million years old and it’s just this little child that looks like a miniature Beaver Cleaver(from Leave it to Beaver) and he went through his whole house and showed us his favorite things in it. It was awesome.
Ahh…reminiscing. ICK I DON”T HAVE MUSIC PLAYING!!! FETCH ME THE CDS NOW!!! okay took care of that… some emergency
SUGAR RAY
That’s a neat name for a band… to name it after one of your role models. However, most of my role models are currently in a band. MOST OF THEM being Lisa Loeb, Art Alexakis, and Gwen Stefani. The two that are NOT in a band are Derek Jeter(as if it weren’t obvious) and Eta Place. Most of you chilluns will not know who Eta Place is and if you don’t know who Derek Jeter is you can go die in a hole because EVERYONE should know who he is… i mean come on he’s a baseball god! Anyways…
Eta Place was a chick that travelled with Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid and like all the documents show that she was really a whore but the movie portrayed her as a teacher. And like despite the laws and what was “proper” in the beginning of last century… she did what she wanted and that’s cool! Even though she was a bank robber
Well, I’m gonna go for now- Well you’ll prolly gets another entry later.