Isn't it wonderful?
It’s really really nice to have people there that care about you. It just sucks when they are boys and mostly they are only boys. Outside of my CLOSEST girl friends (less than 5) there really aren’t that many girls just all out THERE for me. Plus, this week Sarah got mad at me because I was talking to TannerBoys are so incredibly complicating- I swear, i can’t stand them!!! Grr! Oh well, I suppose I’ll be okay, maybe. heh heh. I had another STRANGE dream last night but I don’t particularly remember much of it.I keep thinking about what Gabe and what he said to me yesterday. We had so much time that we spent together and we were such an important part of each others lives. ya know? I still cry over the song Crazy and it sure the hell doesn’t feel like I”m gettin’ over him- but I do think that he’s grown a lot as a person. I think we both have. But I know I flirt with him sometimes at school and I don’t know how to tell him what I’m thinkingProlly because I don’t know how to tell myself what I’m thinking. I wish I could explain to him but usually I just hear a song and am like “OH MY GOSH! THAT”S EXACTLY WHAT I’M THINKING!” but he doesn’t relate to that. Grr! BOYS! They create so many problemsI’m so happy with Colby that going back to Gabe isn’t even an option at all, but I miss him so much. Just the way he was when he was good and everything.. but even if we did get back together Allison would get really upset and stuff and/or his family wouldn’t approve of it at all. So, I’ll just be here without him and having him hate me for still crying even though he thinks I don’t like him anymore. The truth is… I like to many guys and it isn’t that I prefer gabe over colbyThe thing is- I hafa see gabe EVERY SINGLE DAY for 7+ hours at school and I only see Colby about 1 (passionate and wonderful) hour a day. It’s just hard to focus on the good when the obvious is right in front of your face.I wrote a song during church today.