Dreamy Nailpolish by Revlon
Well, I had a mental breakdown today in class- but that’s okay because I’m all better now and stuff. I think (heh heh) I felt kind of dreary and shit during 5th hour so I went to mr. ransones office and we talked all through that hour then I went to 7th hour and just started bawling… so i went back to his office. oh well… the whole time i was there i was thinking “I just wish I could pull Sarah out of band to talk to me… I really need to talk to her cuz she IS MY BEST FRIEND! And she’ll be there for me.” Gosh, it’s nice to have a best friend thats a girl.
Let’s see… anyways my breakdown was NO fun AT all but I’m better now, of course, I still wonder why I cry. And it really freaked me out because… okay yesterday in english (7th hour) I got really bored, so i like… scratched my arm until it burned, and then I stopped and it was kinda swollen and it was cool and gross lookin this morning but it was just something i did and then today i was walking to mr. ransones office from class and i just started scratching my hand…
I don’t know how the pain of having your hand burn/bleed works but it does… it just kind of calms me and I know its bad and stuff, but i’m not doing anything to terribly serious and i would never do drugs and by now all you peeps should know my theories on alcohol…
But I really thought that this was something experimental but when i was scratching below my ring finger today, my head was totally cleared and i didn’t hafta focus on the other things… I suppose I need to go now…