wednesday, april 2, 2003
ah. yeah. so i haven’t blogged in a week and i really don’t know what to say to catch everyone up. i don’t really remember what all has happened. hm.
madeline and i worked everything out. although nothing was really at all wrong i don’t think. she just worries that i’m going to leave her. but i’m not going to. so she’s just going to have to learn to accept me sticking around 🙂 but i really think we’re fine. i mean. we’ve been together for a while now and it’s working out. she’s so.. mm. great!
i started attempting to install/figure out movable type last week. i’m starting a group blog at http://earthfire.windflame.net and i decided to use that program instead of greymatter or anything else. it’s kind of a bitch to get the hang of though. although i like it a lot better than i did greymatter.. it’s just taking forever to get familiar with. hm. it’s like that period in a relationship where you’re first getting intimate and it’s like you have fun learning about how the other persons body works but you really wish that you could just BE there with out all of the guess and checking. anyway, i have it all installed and everyone has user accounts but i can’t get the templates done. and that’s what i’m working on right now.
friday/saturday was the tournament at seaman. on friday clay came up to me and excitedly said “guess who likes you? you’d never guess!” and i was like “Uh. erh. uh.” cuz i’m friends with mostly emporia girls and it’s just all i don’t know. so yeah. he was like “A.!” only he didn’t abbreviate it. so yeah. that was interesting. because he’s right i never would’ve expected it. and i just thought i’d record it because no acting on anything will be done because i’m happy with madeline and not interested in pursuing other realtionships. i just see no reason to. anyway. sarah and i were on speedforlittlekids and so student congress wasn’t that bad. all 6 fucking hours of it. we had a lot of fun. in that geeky sort of way. everything that could’ve gone wrong in ld went wrong but we covered our asses well and no one really knew. except for the people that saw me mid-panic-attack. mwah-haha. it was terrible. but then all was done and i got to go home.
tutu brought down my birthday present at the tournament (just drove here from man-happenin’) and so he and i hung out and he time kept at the tournament and then he came to my house with me and we debated genetic engineering on the couch. only debators. my god. we’re so entertaining. anyway, it got late and mom said that he could stay so he slept on my couch and i woke him up at 5 oclock in the morning so that he could return to manhattan and get to work on time. he made it home okay. which is good. because i was worried. i always think that people are going to get in car wrecks. maybe i have seperation anxiety. which doesn’t make much sense. because i’ve never had problems with cars and separation. it’s probably all natural.
saturday went well. except that pam yelled at everyone. including me. so i’m mad at her. and therefore going to kick the asses of the t-high lders at the ld tournament this friday. haha. she yelled at the wrong lincoln douglas debator! i’m also going to win ix. because i decided.
my birthday was march 31 and on sunday i went out to lawrence with madeline and steph. we went to flush, atc, sugartown, and love garden, plus some other random places for food or clothes-looking. it was a lot of fun. i got a corduroy skirt/pi from madeline for my birthday and stephanie got me a bunch of underwear and a gift certificate to pts. yay! i had a great time hanging out with the girls and all that and the food was good. plus, madsee and i got to hold hands during lunch.. even though mom was there. because mom sat at a different table. but it was nice cuz i would’ve hated the “longing glances” usually associated with she and i being around mom. aagh.
on my ACTUAL birthday, monday, sarah and i hung out after school the whole night. we went out to burger king to get food and then we couldn’t take the music there anymore so we went to best buy to play. and we made fun of all of their movies and dvds and we did yoga in the aisles (that is i did) and then we made up a dance “the sloan” in the cd section and then we went and performed it. when we were done, tyler called and so we did a drug deal in the parking lot. whee. except it wasn’t really. but it was. after that we went to a fat wreck cords concert at washburn and watched the bands play. the flipsides were pretty good and the real mckenzies rocked.. but i liked rise against the best. call me a fucking emo kid 🙂 they’re all political and sorta emo-core-ish. rock on! i got their t-shirt and their album and then we went to silver lake to see madeline. seeing her two days in a row is nice.
i think i’m a lot happier when i hang out with sarah a lot. she’s such a wonderful girl and she’s the greatest friend. i hope she’s always around because i wouldn’t know what to do without her.