down with the sickness

i feel like shit today and yesterday (and really the day before too) anyway. so wednesday night i went to work and i was really yucky feeling after i got there and i just sat there feeling terrible until it was time for me to go home and then i went home and kicked mom out of my bed (sometimes she sleeps there when the dogs are loud and i’m not home yet) and then i stumbled around looking for cough medicine and i took a bunch of benadryl and then i went to sleep.

i woke up yesterday and called into work because i just couldn’t face preschoolers feeling this way and they were cool about it so i took more benadryl and went back to sleep in my mom&dads bed because people are here working on the ceiling and i would otherwise be trapped in my bed. so i slept more until 1:15 or so and then i got up and went to a meeting that was MANDATORY! at the courthouse about the teen youth court thing. it lasted like 1.5 fucking hours and then i went to see if mom could get me a doctors appt. i got to my car about 4 minutes after they gave me a parking ticket. what bullshit. i’m really pissed. i mean its only 3 dollars but still i was only 4 minutes late. and god dammit i was sick and i had to be there and where else was i supposed to park. so anyway. i drove home and took more cough syrup and got back in bed and then i started calling people whose phone numbers i remembered (crazy dxm) and one of these people was jerrad.

so anyway i call jerrad get his machine which just has his phone number in the computerized voice that they use and i wasn’t even sure if it was jerrad i just thought it was so he calls me back later and asks what i wanted and i said “just to see what you were up to, i guess.” and he said “well i’m supposed to go to lawrence with steph tonight.” and i was like “Oh i didn’t want to do anything i’m sick and i was just calling people” but his phone cut out or got all muffled or something and so i just hung up.. about a half hour later steph calls me and like bitches at me for calling her boyfriend because “he doesn’t like you anymore” and “he doesn’t really want anything to do with you.” and the whole time i’m just like “i don’t know man. i didn’t want him. i just wanted to talk to him cuz i haven’t in a long time and i thought he might be dead or something.. i just didn’t want to lose contact.” and she was like “well have a nice day!” and i was like “okay psycho-cunt.” but i didn’t say that part out loud. anyway. i guess she thinks (this according to lacey sometime last week) that i tried to get up on him a few weeks ago but i swear all of my conversations are logged on my computer and thus i would know if i tried to get up on him and i did not. we joke about stuff like that but i could’ve never gone through with it. besides, until yesterday i thought steph was a pretty cool girl. i don’t know. i felt like maybe i should call back and explain but i was just so drugged up on all the benadryl that i figured i wouldn’t be able to explain, plus i was pretty heavy and hard to move. dxm, shrug.

ah. madeline called me back (i called her too) and she said that she’s fine with being my girlfriend again. (w00t) i’m excited. other than that there isn’t a whole lot going on besides my being sick and freaking out about clipper but i suppose i’ll bitch about all that later. ::rolls eyes:: dammit.

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