just like you told me

Jess, I love you, and I can’t ever see that changing. I want you to be happy.
-BD

that’s what you say to me
that is what i believed
that’s what you said to me,
just two weeks ago
i said that i love you too
or that i loved you too
anymore i don’t know which is true
i don’t know what to believe.

i either hate you
or else I hate me
sometimes i feel like it’s kinda hard to breathe
in this oxygen tank
it’s corroding my lungs
and you’re breaking me down
like heart beats
(heart)(beat)

i hope it feels good to know
that i didn’t lie to you
i hope you’re gratified by my wounds
don’t get so angry
yeah don’t be so crazy
i don’t want to know
what you’re thinking.

he says if i need a rebound
his friend might rape me
i’ve got other thoughts in my mind
i’m afraid to let go
because i’d feel empty like vases
in the arms of someone else