maybe i can see you
my last relationship was a fallacyphallacy
look up at me
i need to see your face
so i can record it
again and again and again
inside of my brain
even if someday,
the hapiness you hand me
falls out of my eyes
like tears that erase you
and take parts of me with them
it’ll be worth all of today
just for the day
to feel this way.
i’ll smile awkwardly
next time i
want to kiss you
because i’m afraid
to move to fast
it hurt to see you turn away
but i got over it, i always do.
but don’t blame me
if next time i make you lean in
i want to, believe me
and i’ll let you, believe me
just do it, nike.
i’ll give you everything
that i have to offer
it’s not much to live on
but dammit we can try
and i’m sick of trying
so (being with) you is letting go
i’m letting go of all of my thoughts
that i never thought out
but held on to.
you and i could be are so right.
make me feel beautiful.
you always do.