die a little
i am kicking and screaming
fighting away everyone
yelling “don’t love me”
repeating and when that fails
screaming hurtful words louder
trying to escape the pain
i want to dilate
i want to die a little
their hands reach out for me
but i make fists hard to hold
instead the affix themselves to my wrists
i am nothing but angry
i want it all gone.
everyone out, i’ll start with me.
i want to dilate.
i want to die a little.
everyone that ever loved me will leave me
ending with me
(i won’t let go.)