stopped car rides
ours is a history of long car rides and stopped car rides, water beds and cuddling turned into heated debates ? your skin v. my skin. i don’t ever remember who wins, only that i meant to say no. and i was so sure you meant nothing to me, of course that was yesterday. you weren’t here then. you never call. you wouldn’t love me. you say you do love me, and later you assure me that you really mean it. we’re both so afraid to fall again we cling to each other. only to fall together, but it hurts less that way. until we hit the bottom. maybe there is no bottom, maybe i never jumped and neither did you. but i think that the first time your fingertips found the back of my hand i just fell and i didn’t even know.