strawberry burns
the first taste is so wonderful because you feel like you’re in control of being out of control and thats how great it is. so great, you want to hold onto it and remember it forever but then you come down (and hard) and you forget what it felt like you just remember hating for it to end so then you try it again. its not as good this time but you still want it, more and more and more. so you keep doing it and then you’re so high that you start coming down perpetually. on and on and on until the pain is seeping out through your veins and no amount of miligrams could make you okay again. you sort of want to pop your eyes out, that’s the equivalent of stopping all together. so you stop. and it hurts so bad you swear off of it altogether. and then one day you see it and you remember how to get it. you’re lying in the streets with your strawberry burns and when they get there you’re too unconcious to feel anyone taking you away. when all along you just wanted someone, anyone to take you away.