such great heights
i’m so tired of jumping for you through your goddamn hoops and trying to do backflips (really just falling on my ass) i’m growing wearing of trying to exist i’m just letting go and falling apart in my bedroom with comforters so soft and successful in their task. even if you were down blankets you could not keep me wrapped up in you i’m writhing out, i’m sorry, i hope some day you’ll understand but maybe you never will and then again maybe you can’t. i’m standing at such great heights looking down upon you there i’m not sure if you’re yelling to me: either “jump and i will catch you” or your silent so silent because you jumped before me and i won’t go. i’m sorry. but you’re too far gone to hear me now, i’m sorry. as i fall to my knees right there i scream it louder. my screaming, sobbing voice falls on deaf ears you’ve tuned me out now i’m sorry.