your abscense
your absence is like rolling thunder
and the lightning was so quick
it left me alone with a burning tree
wondering where all the magic and the tension in the air had gone
and what i was supposed to do to put out the fire.
in your absence i’m so fucking alone
i don’t know what to do with myself
so i go out with everyone and drown in the loneliness
of trying to say your name
and feeling it choked back by memory.
if i never told you you’re the only one for me,
i should have.
if i ever told you you’re the only one for me,
i was right.
or that’s how i feel and i can’t think, my minds numb
i just feel and i feel like i miss feeling you.
i think i want him, but i want all of them
because it kills me to feel like someone doesn’t want me
but this late at night it feels like no one should want me
and i only want you because you’ve always loved me
unconditionally.
and i’ve only been happy, with me,
when i was with you.
this absence of you is breaking me
i can’t take it, i don’t like it, i didn’t want it.
this abscense of you is worse than the absence of me
and your absence is really my absence
but i blend into you and i think that’s okay.
in your absence, i miss your ceiling.
so love me love me love me
in your absence