laughter
i dreamt of you last night too,
and i could see you
you were seated rows away from me
and i was mouthing words to you
and you were giving me a look,
what-the-fuck-jess-what-are-you-saying.
you were ignoring me.
and you had all of her attention
her laughter filled the air,
permeating my silence and
stimulating my jealousy.
every sound and emotion in that room
was mine mine mine.
so i just watched you intently
remembering
you always made me laugh
(you always make me laugh)
and i want you.
i had so many suitors circling around me
but i was unhappy
if you were not mine
and you were someone elses just then
but i owned everything in that room
and i didn’t own you
and i didn’t want to own you
i wanted to love you
and i did love you
i can’t love anyone else
shrug, maybe i just won’t.
it doesn’t matter either way, does it?
as long as i’m loving you
and you’re loving me
we can still belong together.
i hope you know this poem is about you.