total hate '95
i got new tires on BB which was a really good thing. then i had a slight speeding problem for the rest of the day because she drives so well and handles amazingly. its nice.
last night i dreamt i went to emporia with some guy. it was strange. cos i don’t really remember what was going on but i was going to see amelia and she didn’ty know that i was going shrug. i miss her a lot were both so busy anymore that we never get to talk.
lacey’s mac is having an identity crisis: first, it couldn’t find the finder so we took it to blackman who opened it and was like “rawr rawr i’m mr. blackman” and started it and it worked (it always works for him. HE’S A WITCH but its as yet undetermined if he floats or not). then, we brought it back and now it won’t find the server… i told lacey that perhaps she was too far away.. but that doesn’t appear to be fixing it. cos now she’s in front of me and i’m getting a good connection. maybe technology is out to fight her. oh well. we’re writing essays all hour. and i’m not really doing mine. although i formatted it properly and wrote the beginning of the first paragraph and now i’m trying to figure out what’s going on. cos i don’t really have any idea. she finally got it to work. 3rd computer hah. they hate her.
now we’re eating cheerios that are totally delicious. i love them. although we feel like horses (she does) and i feel like a troll because of how we eat them. mm.. i want to go home.
actually, i need to go home. i haven’t taken my medicine in a long time. because i’m horrible about remembering it. and i feel sooo much better when i’m on it.. i don’t know why i’m not. anyway. i’m at the point in not taking them where i’m just horribly depressed all the time and i never want to get out of bed or do anything but just die. all the time. and everytime anyone talks to me i get defensive and then i start crying so i get angry and then i just want to be at home. that’s all. mostly i want to cry. a lot .
i got an 87 on my last government test (cries. lacey said something along the lines of “ah jess…” and i got defensive, started crying (inside), then got angry and i think i got over it this morning. belh. who knows. anyway. i’m happy with the grade. i have a 92 percent in the class and ithink that’s at least a start… i got an A on my pronoun test in AP English though. and a 100 percent on my ap calc test. rock on.
tiffany just said fuck. that was so cool.