how weird is it?
x 3m0 cHix0r: hey there
MillaIceIceBaby: hey
x 3m0 cHix0r: howre you?
MillaIceIceBaby: im alright, ive been busy as hell
x 3m0 cHix0r: me too
MillaIceIceBaby: jess… i owe you an apology
x 3m0 cHix0r: why?
MillaIceIceBaby: i havent been a good friend, I was having a tough time in my life, and i let that take priority over other people…. i havent been trying to avoid you, I know it seems that way, but i do care about you, i just have been busy
x 3m0 cHix0r: its okay. i understand. as long as you knew i’d always be here to talk to you about whatever you need to talk about then that’s whats important. i’ve found myself to be distant and unemotional as of late anyway.
MillaIceIceBaby: i know, but it really isnt ok, I know what it feels like to be, kind of ignored and its not good … and i wouldnt want you to feel that way ever
x 3m0 cHix0r: well were you doing it intentionally?
MillaIceIceBaby: no, i just got busy, but it still happened that i didnt try as hard as i should of
x 3m0 cHix0r: well then i understand that. i’m in over my head a lot. especially lately.
MillaIceIceBaby: ok, good, so we are alirght?
x 3m0 cHix0r: yah of course.
x 3m0 cHix0r: i dreamt about emporia the other night.
MillaIceIceBaby: really?
x 3m0 cHix0r: yah there was a forensics tournament or something and anna was there but they like wouldn’t let her inside because she wasnt on the squad or something.. and then she like took over. i don’t really remember the details too well.
MillaIceIceBaby: lol werid
MillaIceIceBaby: well kid im off to do some homework… call me sometime ok?
x 3m0 cHix0r: okay i will. talk to you later.
sometimes i miss her you know. like shes on that list of people i never got that i wanted and i think it really pisses me off that she wanted me so bad and then we kissed and she was just like “arugh. nevermind.” and i know theres something that had to have caused her to be that way and i don’t know what it is and it just makes me sad. but i don’t know what i’m sad about cos i don’t regret giving in. she’s just such a cool girl.