my eyelids close

Jess on December 12, 2003

madeline called and i talked to her about it. i really think i’m just shocked because i’m not used to death and especially when its someone that’s so young that i knew. i’ve never experienced ANYTHING like this before. but coming home and crying all afternoon felt good. really. and i’m glad that madeline called because i really needed to talk to someone and she is (still and always) one of the few people i can really open up to when i need to. i feel bad that i haven’t talked to her in so long though. its like i’m so busy that i never talk to anyone and i feel bad that she’s on a back burner. but she’s in good company there. cos everything is there for me right now. (overwhelmed much?)

i got a scholarship letter from ksu today … they’re awarding me $3250 for my first year and 1250 for every year after that.. so that’s good news. i just need to pick a major. mwah-hah. mom’s happy about it. i’m still in shock about everything. but its nice to know that i could go to college and not bankrupt myself next year. psh.

2 Replies to “my eyelids close”

  1. Elisha December 13, 2003 at 7:57 pm

    Your page is gorgeous.

  2. erik December 15, 2003 at 4:53 pm

    jess, i really like your design. it’s clean and simple (good thing). i couldn’t find your guestbook, so i hope you don’t mind me signing this. have a great day!

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