see, hear, speak

i’ve never seen anyone like a christmas present more than robert liked his. he put on his ninja costume right away and then put on the underwear. that was the scariest thing ever. heaing “look at his package!” is not exactly what i wanted to happen. yikes! it was funny though. he lost one of his ninja death stars by the end of class. ooh! and neiman’s new digital camera came. it was so cool. i really can’t wait to get mine.

i tried to call madeline tonight but she didn’t answer so i think i will try her again tomorrow. i’m just so scared everyone i know is going to die. and that would kill me if she was just gone and i couldn’t talk to her anymore. but i don’t feel like its my place to call cos i said i would do whatever she needed me to do.. i don’t know. i’m just scared about it. cos i care about her so much. and i really think care is more of an epithet than anything else. i’m just sad. she’s meant so much to me in the past and now we’re not speaking.. its hard. its hard to know that if i wanted to pick up the phone to call her i couldn’t. i’m scared she didn’t answer on purpose.

i slept for 13 hours last night. do you have any idea how nice that felt? it was great. and i had some finals that went well today. it was very happy.

i’m getting better about michelle. i’ve still cried every day for the past week but the crying isn’t as violent anymore. mckeithan’s having a dinner for her tomorrow night at jeff west and i’m going to that. i think it’ll make me feel a lot better. it should help to be around other people that are going through it also.

tonight i got to meet my penpal from Youth Council. she was really cute. although she was kind of shy and i get nervous around little kids.. it was still nice to meet her. she lives by thomas. how crazy is that? “its a small world after all… its a small world after all” “stop that! anything but that!” “nooobody knows the trouble i’ve seen… nobody knows my sorrows..” “growl” hehe. lion king = rox0rz.

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