i'm tired, so tired

note: if who was anyone, it was benjamin gibbard or whoever the fuck he was singing about in that song. dammit.

i kind of feel like i can’t say anything in here without people questioning what its about. most of the time what i write is about a collection of people or in the case of yesterday, no one at all. i’m not willing to justify every other entry in the damn blog and if people have a problem or a question about it there is a better place to contact me than my comments. try the email link (click my name at the bottom of the entries). christ. it’s a fucking journal. read the damn disclaimer if you have a problem with it. and if you really have a problem with it i can always block your ip so you can’t find anything to have a problem with anymore. its my fucking journal. the whos don’t matter. and generally they’re nonexistent.

i’m pretty tired today. i worked until like 11:00 last night and then i asked “do you think anything else will happen here tonight?” and they said no so i asked if i could leave and i got to which was kinda nice. even if it was just an extra half-hour of sleep.. its still an extra half hour. my sleep wasn’t very good either i had a bad nightmare that i cried myself awake from. it was awful. i dreamt that mom and dad drowned muffin for almost no reason. like i woke up before they even offered one. it was terrible. and then the dogs were all worried about me because i made the yelping noise. i’m glad they care.

i had to wake up at 5:30 (mom decided). she came into my room at 5:47 jess’ room time which is like 5:40 normal time and demanded that i wake up so that i could take a shower and be at this thing i had at washburn at 7am. damn! i was so tired i could barely stand it and i kept trying to go back to sleep and she just kept waking me up.. i finally got up a few minutes before my alarm went off (6:12a JRT) pish. then i went to my meeting and it was interesting. it was like the intergovernmental council or something and mathes (superintendent) was there and he (apparently) doesn’t know me. so we were going around the circle introducing ourselves at our little table and i said that i was a student at our highschool and a member of youth court. right after i introduce myself he leans over and is like “did she just say she went to our school?!” and the board member also from my district was next to him and said “yah she’s the one that won the debate tournament this year” and then about 20 minutes later or so he was like “well as you can probably see why i’d just like to mention that jess here won the state debate tournament this year” and then he winked at me. what a fuck. why doesn’t he get to know the students before he makes an ass of himself.. again? i swear. the people at K-state know me better than this guy and they’ve introduced themselves to me 9 times, at least. people are such asses these days.

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