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you catch me when i’m falling down on you i’m really mopey today. madeline told me last night that she’s been seeing this other girl and for whatever reason i’m really heartbroken over it all. i know i’ve been seeing other people but its like this makes it final. like i can’t have her back. like she can replace me. and i won’t let myself or maybe i just can’t replace her but now i feel like i should. and then i feel bad about jarod cos i’m really close to him and i’ve been seeing him a lot but i just can’t let myself let go into him and be with him the way maybe i should be. but i don’t know. i have no idea whats going on or what i should do or if anything even needs doing. maybe madeline and i were just meant to be friends maybe none of this love mattered but it did. and what if she falls in love with this other girl and our love stops existing? what if everything i’ve believed in so strongly for so long is just a lie? i’m so fucking terrified. someone fix me, please.