its the way that he makes you fall in love

i did not qualify in lincoln-douglas debate to NFL. although, i do believe i won the round. I picked up the community judge and dropped raff and this guy that was an x-topeka high debater. i’m pretty sure the guy should’ve been struck from the room as he was too friendly with the neg in a really competitive situation. it’s really too bad. he said that i misinterpreted rousseau. which is completely untrue. and if it is true.. then she misinterprets him as well. because she’s running a slightly different variety of the same case. and i believe that my version is stronger than hers anyway because it upholds the equality of the individual and the community. i just think its shitty.. cos if she really felt i was misinterpreting rousseau, then she was doing it intentionally as well. and from what i’ve read of the social contract i was completely not misinterpreting him. fuck. i need to learn to lie more if i’m going to do well.

yesterday i took 3rd in IX at emporia. so i think that’s pretty good. and i’m going to prep hardcore for IX at IEs so that i can just qualify in that. and then, it doesn’t matter about who should’ve won what round at LD quals.

i feel like a failure :-/

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