feeling strangely fine
today was a female impowerment day. i woke up in a good mood ;). i declared myself vegetarian yesterday after peta2 sent me lit. i felt awesome when i awoke and even more awesome when i got out of bed. then i went to french and had to walk all over the campus cos i parked at petro then needed to go to the library and then i left my card there so i tried to knock my way into my room but it didn’t work. so i bounced back across campus with my palm+music and then went to class. after french i had a gov’t test that i did well on (i think) and i was done in time to take a shower before meeting lacey at lolas.
i had half of a veg sandwich and some cranberry juice and talked to laceroo about life in general then she left for class and i paid my cellphone bill. i was scratching to leave town at that point and had been considering manhattan but it turned out josh wouldn’t be in so i just returned to the coffee shop and hung out with nate and the other coffee shop people (jason dusty and his mom today) and that was grand. i was playing on the internet there and learned that lisa loeb has a new cd out so nate and i went to grab that and it’s absolutely superb.
at that point in the day i declared it “cunt day” because sometimes normal days have to be holidays to celebrate.
this guy jason who i knew mostly from just around was there and needed a ride home so i toted him back to berryton and that was really kick ass. i needed my road trip and i got that. then we got to hang out at his house which is all pretty and way out in the country. he has a pond with all of these catfish and bass and carp and other fish and they’re all domesticated. if you throw in food the catfish will come up to the top and flop around and eat it. it was so serene to just sit there on the bench on the dock and watch the catfish. plus i got to pet his horses and play with his dogs. it was so much fun. i’m so glad i offered to take him home. i needed some country driving man. it was fuckin awesome.
yesterday it was brought to my attention that maybe madeline is the one who is bad for me. she can be so completely up and down with me all the time and she treats me completely like shit. and i know that i’ve left her but that doens’t mean she can just bitch at me all the time. maybe we broke up because she was being bitchy and jealous about me seeing jarod. and not really about anything else. maybe what i said was actually what i thought too. and i just made up excuses in my mind. but we’re all fucked up and insane. so who knows.
in other news, i spent the night at j’s. that was nice. i mean, really. we’d done the kissing thing and the holding hands thing but it was time to try out some new things too…