updates
i cried about my uncle last night.
i did well on my public speaking midterm (w00t)
i’m pms-ing like whoa.
i was almost in 1 very bad and 1 not so bad car accident today.
i avoided both of them.
my UTI came back.
i’m dreading it because i’m going to get sick on the medicine.
i’m tired of feeling like shit.
madeline and i aren’t speaking.
i think thats about 9/10ths of the reason i’m so depressed.
among other things..
j told me he loved me last night but i apparently simplified the whole thing into the dream i think what happened was he said it and i was like “i’m not ready for that” and he was like “oh okay sorry.” and so then he was like “i mean more like a less than three” or something. and then i fell asleep. and i dreamt that i really freaked out. and then i spent all day being like “did j tell me he loved me?”
and now i’m taking out all of my pms-ness on nate. by making him feel bad for our breakup. but sometimes i think i didn’t just get bored of him one day and we actually had a legitimate reason to stop seeing each other.