wake up, a
i wake up
?? longing for you
i spend
?? one.twofive hours waiting for you
?? because last night,
i felt so close
?? to you.
proximity,
? that i’ve longed for
? for a long time
? because it just hasn’t felt the same
? since i got back
until on the phone with you
? i heard your voice
? and you sounded familiar
? for the first time
? in a while.
i called tonight
? to make those plans i promised you
? to see if you’d come watch stars with me
? because the stars
? seemed so beautiful
? but lacked a certain boy
? whose hand i liked to hold.
you never warned me,
? “jess, i’ll try to push you away:
?? but stay.”
?? and i want nothing but to
?? cling to you.
you only hear what you want to hear
?? no matter what words i say