out of habit
my thighs have been involved in many accidents
and now i can’t get insured
and i don’t need to be lured by you
my cunt is built like a wound that won’t heal
and now you don’t have to ask
because you know how i feel
-ani
so joe and i have a really interesting relationship where we flirt with each other a lot and we always joke about how we’re cheating on our girlfriend/boyfriend with each other and everyone knows we both love who we’re with so we don’t really threaten those relationships. and i joke about wanting his girlfriend a lot. cos she’s cute and they broke up tnight. which made me realize that 1) i really want her. and 2) i really want him, too. and 3) augh! boyfriend! augh!
JimiLosey: Breakup sex is awesome.
smash static: hm?
JimiLosey: Yup.
JimiLosey: ’tis.
JimiLosey: even if it’s mostly head.
smash static: oh. are you and travis having problems again?
JimiLosey: No.
JimiLosey: Me and Caitlin are on break.
JimiLosey: And we’re probably broken up.
JimiLosey: But the sex was awesome.
smash static: oh. whoa. when/why did that happen?
JimiLosey: When?
JimiLosey: Just now.
JimiLosey: Or a few minutes ago.
JimiLosey: My doing, basically.
JimiLosey: But only because I knew that she wanted to
JimiLosey: but wasn’t sure how I would take it:
JimiLosey: "Ethel, I have something for you.
JimiLosey: It’s a divorce."
JimiLosey: – Royal.
JimiLosey: That’s pretty much my approah.
JimiLosey: This whole thing doesn’t need to be repeated to Steve.
JimiLosey: Because it’s kinda quiet right now, I think.
JimiLosey: And by Steve, I mean anyone.
JimiLosey: You’re the only person who knows.
smash static: are you okay with it?
JimiLosey: I instigated it.
JimiLosey: I love her,
JimiLosey: but much as a friend.
JimiLosey: And I wasn’t getting much anyways.
JimiLosey: and so it’s still roughly the same relationship
JimiLosey: with a different name.
JimiLosey: and a little less hope.
JimiLosey: I think I’ll adjust.
JimiLosey: I didn’t get upset or anything
JimiLosey: but I think it’s because this time
JimiLosey: Leonard Cohen wasn’t on
JimiLosey: like last time
JimiLosey: we almost broke up
JimiLosey: and we both got really upset.
JimiLosey: (Wes Anderson likes to put sad music in dramatic scenes with non-dramatic dialogue to create the mood: mostly Nico)
JimiLosey: The entire relationship was done as some sort of sick "I love you, Wes Anderson" thing.
JimiLosey: And I made a LOT of references to him and his movies
JimiLosey: during the proceeding.
JimiLosey: Also, we checked each other’s oil a lot.
JimiLosey: so I think everything’s going to be awesome.
smash static: that’s good.
JimiLosey: I kicked her really hard earlier
JimiLosey: and made her cry.\
JimiLosey: so I think that gets all the "drama" out.
smash static: nice
JimiLosey: It was an accident.
smash static: the breakup or the crying?
JimiLosey: The kicking her.
JimiLosey: in the shin.
JimiLosey: for checking my oil.
smash static: lol
JimiLosey: She seemed really interested
JimiLosey: in if you were interested in her.
JimiLosey: I’m about… 100% sure.
JimiLosey: that if you weren’t with Steve
JimiLosey: she’d go for you hardcore.
JimiLosey: Because she basically said that.
smash static: yeah.
smash static: she’s cute.
smash static: this is awkward for me.
JimiLosey: what is?
JimiLosey: http://asofterworld.com/bush_camp.jpg
smash static: this part of the conversation.
JimiLosey: did you see that?
JimiLosey: I’m sorry.
JimiLosey: Why?
smash static: yeah i’ve read all of them.
smash static: i don’t know. what do i say? “yeah i think yr now-breaked-girlfriend is hot?”
JimiLosey: Yeah?
JimiLosey: Here’s how I figure it:
JimiLosey: None of this really affects me.
JimiLosey: It didn’t when you got on Marcus,
JimiLosey: didn’t really when you started dating Steve,
JimiLosey: and wouldn’t if you got on Caitlin.
JimiLosey: My sole opposition
JimiLosey: would be your status as dating.
smash static: what do you mean?
JimiLosey: Because I would feel like you were being wrong towards Steve.
JimiLosey: Not because I was jealous of you and Caitlin.
smash static: oh. i’m with steve and definitely with steve and wouldn’t do anything with caitlin while that were true..
JimiLosey: I believe this.
JimiLosey: So I don’t really see what’s awkward about it.
JimiLosey: I mean, it’s not like Caitlin and I are on bad terms.
JimiLosey: We both decided we still want to talk to each other every night,
JimiLosey: and maybe fool around
smash static: yeah.
smash static: yeah. its not that. its just. i don’t know.
JimiLosey: and maybe (but probably not) get back together in a few weeks.
JimiLosey: Then what?
smash static: i’m kind of confused about how i feel about a variety of things right now. so i’ll have to get back to you on this one later. and probably have the conversation in person.
JimiLosey: Well, what are you doing in like an hour?
JimiLosey: As it is, I think it’d be kinda neat to be able to talk to someone about this, and youre the
JimiLosey: most obvious choice.
JimiLosey: You don’t need to though. Wow, that sounded really desperate or something when I read that. I’m not feeling like it sounded like I was feeling.
smash static: no i know. its okay.
JimiLosey: I just thoguht it would be neat.
JimiLosey: Don’t feel obligated.
JimiLosey: and if it’s all still too weird, that’s a-ok.
JimiLosey: It just sounded like we were both going through a whole lot of stuff.
smash static: i’m supposed to go to james for a while (AUGH! FREAKOUT! AUGH!) and steve is leaving at like midnight so i might try to leave soon after that and then i could come by
JimiLosey: ahhh!
JimiLosey: freakout!
JimiLosey: Ok, awesome.
JimiLosey: Give me a call when you’re about to come over.
JimiLosey: that’ll be good, because I haven’t bathed yet today.
JimiLosey: Ok, anyways, give me a call later.
JimiLosey: see ya.
smash static: .see ya