dirty, dirty histories
i paint my fingernails
dark colors only
because it covers up the dirt
under my nails
a collection of so many dirts
and oils
from the backs of boys and girls
you couldn’t imagine
you can’t imagine
because you didn’t know me then
i tried to bite
and chew away the dna
leaving only flakes of dead skin
that belonged to me
using the edges
to collect my own blood
from every time i fucked (up)
i just keep trying
to bleed away the sadness
it never works
and i can’t imagine
i can’t imagine why…