simply put
if you ever found me
or knew me
or loved me
you would know this about me now:
i am not happier without you.
i am not more in love because you are not here.
i do not feel stronger with every step knowing you do not seek to step behind me
nor do i feel safer with every step knowing you do not seek to lead me
i do not feel.
if you find me
or know me
or love me
you would know this about me now:
it’s my own love
and words
and promises
i choke on in my sleep
for i could take it back
i could take back every word i’ve ever said
and leave you with a lie
affirming what you think we had
but that was not this
our love was
simply
one reality
in each of our lives
if you ever look for me
or come to know me
of fall in love with me
you will know this about me then:
every breath
belongs to her
in tribute.