the health and starvation
my mom told me yesterday that my figure is really getting good and that i should keep doing whatever i’ve been doing. i told her that i’ve been starving myself. not because i have been (mostly.. its hard to eat veg around here sometimes…) but just because i want to keep up my trend of suggesting that her comments about my weight give me an eating disorder. still though, it was good to hear this from her. i fit well into this dress that i’ve had for like 4 years yesterday as well. usually i wear a tshirt over it but yesterday i put it on and i looked all nice and tanned in it (because i am, yay lakes!) and wore it for the day. i fill it out in the right ways now. lol. i did wear a tshirt over it to work but still it was nice because i was afraid mom would say i looked bad in it and she said the opposite and i kinda felt good about my body.
it’s great to be acting like its summer again. staying out all night and being tan and my hair is starting to bleach in the sun which is really fun. it’s slightly lighter to the noticing eye, but its mostly just got a lot of color depth to it and isn’t all mousy like it is in the winter. plus i love my haircut. getting my passport and remembering thinking the picture on it were good and then seeing them and being like “whoa, no hair volume” made me realize this. it’s an awesome haircut and i can wear it in an upside down half pony tail again which is really stellar because it looks kinda pretty with all of my curls like spilling out onto the crown of my head.
todays was an entry of vanity. i wonder if there is new asofterworld. expect a blog on my identity soon.