extraordinary machine

i haven’t blogged in forever because i’m a terrible person. but also, i’m working on a new layout which makes me not very keen on this “old” layout. so there’s that. what else has been going on? basically, i’m incredibly busy all the damned time. i’m working around 20 hours a week and taking 18 hours of class plus forensics which is at least 4 hours but usually closer to 6 hours and a thursday through sunday weekend. oi. i’ll be glad when the semester is over.

joe and i are together still and i’m extremely happy. he’s a really fantastic complement to me because we’re pretty driven and our goals are usually complimentary if not the same. it’s nice. he’s really effin intelligent too which i dig because we can pretty much always have conversations and i think we learn a lot from each other which is awesome as well.

my life seems to be alright. even when i’m stressing out about it, i still think that i’m probably pretty happy right now. it sometimes reminds me of that ani lyric in little plastic castle where she says “it’s hard to say if their happy but they don’t seem much to mind.” but othertimes i feel more optimistic than that. i got the new fiona apple cd and it’s blowing me away. the title track goes “if there was a better way it would find me…” and i think that’s pretty true. i feel like i’m where i’m supposed to be. and my past is now my past and my future is now whatever it could possibly be.

i’ve also became a relatively devout catholic. i suppose the last times i was posting i had been going to church and stuff but now it’s a weekly event. i think i’m getting a lot out of it. it’s not nearly as bad as i’d remembered it in my youth. even when i really liked going to northland i had to have a contemporary service and i remember sitting through the service just wanting to sing more or have it just be over. i think i pay more attention and the missal helps me catch up when i miss out on parts. it’s nice going at 5 too because we get like a round robin of priests which means lots of different ideas. i’m not positive but i think we have yet to have the same priest twice which is sweet just cos it means that we get tons of ideas and catholic interpretations. i think it also helps spur conversation… like i’ll talk about the direction i would’ve gone with the readings or joe will start dialogue over that passage or one or more of us will be upset about something in the homily or happy about something though i’m pretty sure it’s the other.

after mass, joe and i go to dinner which is good too… we try to always go on a date then. and sometimes we sneak in other dates if we happen to both have time. like last friday we went to get food at what ended up being red lobster and then we saw A History of Violence which was pretty good though it was sort of like a lifetime movie that just had lots of gun violence instead of bulimia or something lol. which isn’t that bad cos aren’t you always hoping people will get shot up during a lifetime movie? i’d probably recommend it, though it should’ve been a bit longer. see it at the 1.50 theater.

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