Melancholy and the serengetti

Today i have been sort of sad. I don’t know quite why. Maybe because I didn’t get enough sleep last night. Maybe because I had to go to the apartment to feed the cat and while I was there I just looked around and realized that maybe it will never feel like something other than home. I don’t know. I took a short nap with the cat who was happy to see me. Poor little guy doesn’t get why everyone’s leaving. And today it came to a head cos he had to wait to eat. But he lead me to the bowl right away and then ate for a while. He came and laid down with me when he was at the halfway point of his meal and we cuddled. I fell asleep and he pawed at my face; he kept his claws in. I found myself unsure whether to be really happy that he didn’t claw me or really angry at him because it shows that he knows what he’s doing when he does claw up the rest of my body. I decided to be happy that his little paws were cutely rubbing my face. What a good cat. He let me sleep and hold him after he ate the rest of his lunch. It was a nice nap. I woke feeling refreshed.

I’m going to Tanzania in the fall. I was looking at photographs and realizing all of the crazy animals that will be there. The internal dialogue I have is priceless sometimes… “Jess, this is a lion. It might be your next door neighbor.” How fun. But seriously. From beaches to mountains to grassy plains… Tanzania is where it’s at. And, for that matter, it’s where I’m going to be in less than a year. Crazy-talk.

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