Has spring set in
I gave myself a manicure-pedicure yesterday complete with rasberry ice nail polish. I think that means that Spring, for me, has started. The flipflops i’m wearing only agree with this. Now, if I could get the weather to agree.
I’m slowly managing to complete all the things I need to get done. Tonight might be an allnighter. I have a migraine now of course, so that pretty much blows and is going to make it difficult to get anything done, but i was also really honest about my progress tonight talking to Bearman. So I’m sure he’ll be understanding and he’s only grading to the fourth error anyway… Really, I just need to get Spring Break. That’ll give me a good chunk of time to get stuff done. Oh aggh.
And Thursday is just closer and closer and closer. It’s hard to concentrate. And listening to the Jack’s Mannequin recording of the concert we went to makes it no easier. I am slipping through, I am slipping through, into the airwaves.
I talked to Tyler today. That was odd. I think the last exchange we had ended with me saying “Why would I think myself a whore?” after waking up to a text message he’d sent the night before at the end of a long fight. I guess I don’t get an answer to that… but it was also nice to talk to him. Mehrm. I was just thinking. About his ringtone. Which was Puella… whatever by Bright Eyes. The one with the latin title, I call it. Anyway it said “i’m finding it hard to concentrate always thinking of you…” and so me talking about concentrating made me think of that. And really I guess I’m sort of at the point of the first part of that song now. where it’s all in past tense. “The drives and the talks were amazing.” Yeah, they were. I wish I would stop trading friendships for lessons I need to learn. Maybe someday I’ll grow up enough to stop that. Maybe that’s what I learned this time.