Lying in a pine grove

I listened to the decemberists on my way into work today while operating both chopsticks and a moving vehicle. do my subtleties ever cease to amaze? i think not.

i’ve had lots of funny conversation with tyler tonight:
On seeing Kyle wednesday…
[19:49] Tyler: why wed?
[19:56] tasteslikeveg: well i leave town thursday. and he doesn’t really have any obligations thursday and will have to miss his friday classes anyway for that parli tournament in KCMo so he’s coming in early to spend a night with me in Blue Springs
[19:56] Tyler: awww
[19:56] Tyler: thats precious
[19:56] Tyler: it reminds me of a momma black widow eating her mate
[19:56] tasteslikeveg:
[19:57] tasteslikeveg: Black Widow references shouldn’t actually bring a smile to my face. But they do.
[19:57] Tyler: lol
[19:59] tasteslikeveg: What does that say about me?
[19:59] tasteslikeveg: Other than I hate patriarchy?
[20:00] Tyler: you envy hitler
[20:02] tasteslikeveg: hahaha. I wrote a short story once that claimed he was assassinated by Eva Braun
[20:02] tasteslikeveg: instead of killing himself.
[20:03] Tyler: hmm
[20:04] Tyler: you need to get an evaluation

He drives an interesting point. Maybe I’ll tell my therapsychiatrist about this fascination with the black widow. i’m sure he wouldn’t think anything of it. i also thought about how black widows have really pretty red hourglasses and that would be a fun tattoo to have. then i realized that people might find it odd. and i also realized that it’s kind of odd to be so into an animal it isn’t even safe for me to touch. it’s liking thinking raccoons are cute, accurate but dangerous.

Rachel shared the picture on the left with me. I laughed for a very long time. No one gets knitting jokes, though, so I haven’t had the joy of sharing it with anyone who really gets the joke. Instead, I shared it with Tyler to rub it in that he’s not getting the hat I was making him.

I read more of The Elegant Universe by Brian Greene tonight at Lola’s while drinking my single cup of tea because they didn’t have enough for my free refill. Delicious. I’m not even kidding. It was so good. And the book is awesome. It makes me think a lot about how relative everything really is. We read this article in the NY Times science section for my science class and it was pretty boring but it talked about how time is really different on earth compared to other planets, which makes it difficult for the author of the article to imagine life on these other planets. The book kept making me think about that. It turns out Orson Scott Card is right: If Ender travels at the speed of light, he would not age but his sister would. Brilliant. In a very beautiful, lonely, romantic way it makes me think that it’s both possible that we live completely absent the interpretations of other people. Making us wholly individual, unique. While, at the same time, our perception of distance from others is really just that–perception. It turns out that everything is just a matter of how we experience it. Isn’t that beautiful?

Last week I called several members of the Washburn faculty ignorant to their faces at a committee meeting. I’m quite proud of myself about this. Bearman’s taking credit for teaching me everything I know… but I am fairly certain that I’ve always been a badass. Some things are just innate. And I don’t think any of them understood that I was calling them ignorant. Because they’re ignorant, probably. Saying insults that people understand at faculty meetings to the face of people with doctorates = something to work toward. Let the record show that I had plenty of good reason to call them ignorant. They were treating GPAs like some be-all-end-all standard of merit at university. All a GPA measures is yr ability to pick classes/professors well. Either way, Bearman and I lost the meeting. It seems. What assholes.

I also hung out with the debate squad over the weekend. it went better than some might have predicted. all-in-all, i don’t think a return to the squad next year would be the end of my life. so we’ll see how things go with the coaches and get that all sorted out. i also went to dinner with shanna which was very enjoyable. we had kiku’s. then i rented more 24. awesome. it turns out i really miss a lot of those friendships. i’m happy to start trying to restore them.

In 48 hours, I will be with Kyle so he can take me to the airport early Thursday morning. In 72 hours, I will be in Canada. My week is not shaping up too terribly.

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