An ear for baby if you need it
So I’ve had like five migraines in six weeks and I’m not even sure why. The thing about it all is that a year ago I was far, far more stressed out than I am now. And right now I actually feel pretty relaxed about everything, classes are going well. Interpersonal relationships are good. I’m getting along with my parents, seeing more of my brother than before and better than all of that they’re all getting along with each other. So why, then, does that spot behind my eye feel like it’s going to explode 1/7th of the time. I’m not sure, but I have a hunch that it could be distant stressors. Things like grad school coming, a relationship being taken to the next level for the first time. Weird stuff. I’m not sure what it is but it’s something different. At least I finally have a decentish medicine that works 75% of the time to keep me functioning.
Kyle’s been in town all weekend which is nice. He’s been right that it’s fixed things. I just wish that he was around like all the time. Because I’ve never really had a boyfriend that I’ve just liked this much. And I’m glad that I finally do. I wish I had someone around for lunch dates or back rubs or movie nights or even just someone to curl up next to when the day is over. But I don’t, and I think that’s probably okay too. I remember last semester I really appreciated having the time to get to know myself. I’d write about how even though Kyle was far away when I wanted him here, it was nice to get to spend time with friends and not have that daunting issue of boys and girls and dating kind of looming over every conversation. I should just try to look at it that way still. Cos it’s nice to have this life that’s just full of friends and good times without much concern about dating.