We all need a little more room to live.
I’ve spent this weekend in Blue Springs with Kyle. Mostly, we needed to get stuff done for the wedding. IE, we had to finish printing our invitations which we are very close to being done with. All we have to do is print the response cards and then we are done, done, done. We had to delay it because I needed to buy more gold paint from paper-source to get going on that. As long as I was ordering something over the internet, I figured I should probably order some extra bulbs and extra screens, so now i’m good to go for any future gocco projects. hooray! i’d really like to maybe try some screen printing projects that involve more complex design. i really like some of the digital art i’ve created over the years and i bet i could create screen prints of that without too much difficulty. i’ve always worked with layers, and that’s basically what gocco printing is. just layers, and layers, and layers. i should try it out soon.
i’d also like to start taking photographs. i’ve been lusting after some cameras that are somewhere between what I have now and an actual digital slr. the thing is, i know that i wouldn’t take classes or at least, i know that i would not want to put the effort into having an actual slr until i have a good feeling about a regular camera that’s just nice. i don’t want to think that i could see things a certain way and take photos a certain way and then get a camera and find out that i’m not that good at it. so i think it’s probably worth just an investment in a really good “slr-like” camera, that’s the newegg classification.
other than that, i’ve just been enjoying the weekend. the fourth was good. we had a bunch of people over and partied. mostly, kyle stayed sober and i partied. and duker was going to fight a cow but then got inebriated and did not fight the cow, which is too bad. because i wanted to see him verbally berate a cow. instead, he yelled about buck o’neill on the back deck for a while. hopefully, the neighbors aren’t too upset. luckily, this is the suburbs and everyone goes to sleep early even on the fourth. even us.
saturday, we slept in a bit and then printed the rest of the invitations and then kyle cleaned the house and we went out with shaw and phil and rachel to the power and light district. it was nice and there were bright lights which were pretty. and i guess i get that it should be a hot-spot of kansas city. especially if you’re from out of town. but i’m telling you, it’s like a power suck, draining all of the idiots out of the places in kansas city where i would really want to go. so that’s cool. and the brewery and restaurants and whatever are fine. but if i’m going to spend that kind of money on a night out, i’m going to dave and busters. skee ball + trivia + alcohol. delicious.
i think the best thing about this weekend is that it really calmed a lot of my recent fears about us living together, i know it will be fine. but i think i felt a little bit better about the idea last summer. mostly because all of the semi-living together that we do now is in the context of being guests in our parents houses and that’s just stressful. so this weekend we had the chance to hang out and live our lives with some space outside of the room we share when we’re here. i’m sure it will change, hopefully, but i don’t always feel incredibly comfortable just wandering around his house, esp. as i’m only here a few days a week. i need a lot of room to live and sometimes i feel like i’m being too antisocial or like it’s weird if i just hang out downstairs while he sleeps. and othertimes i feel incredibly awkward being forced to socialize because he’s still downstairs. i’m not sure i can fully explain it, but basically, i’m just very, very ready for us to have our own space. and this weekend confirmed, for me, that the only thing i want is a place to live with him.
we watched definitely, maybe tonight. it was pretty good. as i said to a friend, “it wasn’t THAT predictable.” and that’s true. i didn’t necessarily see the ending coming until twenty-five or so minutes before it got to the ending. i also think it got me thinking. mostly about some things that i’ll only share in a poem or to myself. i guess i just think it’s weird that someone would marry someone who was not the great love of their life. i mean, whatever, it’s a movie and a romantic comedy and whatever. (spoiler alert?:) but for sure, if i thought there was anyone else who i would rather be with if they would just have me, i would not be marrying kyle. and i sort of think the movie made it seem like there was someone else he would have preferred to be with. it also got me thinking about the things that we keep so that we can keep just one piece of someone. but that’s what the private entry or the poem will be about. and it will be obvious that that is what it’s about, if i ever get around to writing it or thinking about it.
i’m back at the internship grind tomorrow. woo. excitement-time. the thing is, i think tomorrow i’m just doing sort of odd jobs and tying up some projects i worked on earlier in my internship. and unplanned days aren’t really my favorite part. but it’s not like two weeks ago we could really sit down and make a long plan of what i may or may not be doing today. and i had last week off because everyone in my office was gone.