Author: Jess

i was thinking just now about the phrase “Peace Be With You” as part of a church service and realizing why it’s usually my least favorite part. I get that the point of it is to like express fellowship and stuff with the other people in the church and its supposed to let you feel a sense of peace knowing this, but this, my friends, is not what i get out of it. instead i just feel really anxious and wish people would quit touching me. and i was curious as to why this is. but i realized it today. basically i think no one is actually wishing you peace, they’re just saying this as part of the bizarre ritual of insincere peace-wishing. the first time i tripped mushrooms, i had a talk with pat and ush about how much better the world would be if when you said “peace” to someone you actually meant it. and here i am like 8 months later, not really wishing peace to these people. it would be my guess (though due to a general failure to interpret the Bible it could be something else) that the reason for this part of church is to recreate when Christ said it to His disciples and they knew He was as they said. so dude. let’s go back to that. Peace.

I think that I should start capitalizing more of my sentences. I’ve noticed that this seems to be a trend in various aspects of my life and it is probably for the best.

I had a great day today. I woke up at 9 and started working on speech writing! w00t! This was really great given that I woke up completely naturally and didn’t have any real trouble staying awake at 9 am. Usually, I’ve noticed, I like to fall back to sleep for around an hour but this has apparently changed.

Also, I learned last night that my passport has been in the mail since Saturday which means I should get it virtually any time. Awesome! I can’t wait to have it. I think its kind of a big deal and represents more than just a little book to me. It’s proof in a lot of ways that I’m growing up. In part because I know that my parents have never had a passport or left the country and I get to, but also because Poland is a trip completely orchestrated by my own doings and so completely exciting. I can’t wait to go. And I love that a trip to Poland that was basically decided upon by a series of whims (I wanna go abroad, oh hey CIEE looks good, whoa the deadline is march 15, MOM! I’m going to do this trip thing!, I’ll go CR because CR rocks, CR doesn’t rock on the right dates? Awesome. Poland rocks harder.) and I think that it will. It’ll be really cool because I expect to have a really great experience and I’m so excited about all of it. Including flying for 9 hours because I am a freak. And also because I really like airplanes and long road trips and 9 hours has to be a blast. Besides, if it turns out that it sucks there’s always alcohol. Lol.

Yesterday, Stephanie took me out to get a pedicure and I am forever indebted to her for it. It was exactly what I needed to help calm me down about everything that’s going on in my life. I just feel really out of whack a lot of the time and it was good to just get a nice foot massage and toe-nail painting that day. So Thanks Steph, you rock.

Today I met Annaleigh at WU so that I could print things for free in the Comm office (not having a computer that works well enough to print or the disk to install the printer on the functioning computer sucks!). Then we went to the lake and swam for a few hours. I’m a little sunburned and tired from all of the sun but it was still great. Then we went back to WU and stalked Kev for some tape. Heh. We knew he was around and expected to return for a 5:30 class so instead of waiting for him outside the Comm Department door we decided to go ahead and be “totally creepy” and we went downstairs to find a course schedule for the summer to figure out what classroom he would be going to in case he was there already. We couldn’t find the paper ones so we used the handy-dandy internet to look up the O’Leary Comm courses available on Wed at 5:30. Turns out it was in MO268 so we could’ve stayed upstairs. Alas! As we were returning to our perch by the office we noticed Kevin walking in so we hid from him behind a corner and we giggled awkwardly because at this point we were just being bizarre. We waited until he had stopped climbing stairs and then tiptoed to the staircase and climbed up it. Annaleigh peeked around the corner and saw that he was already in the office so we ran by it and knocked. He opened the door. We stood their mostly shocked because we finally found him and then made our way to the looting of the tape. Going to the lake with Annaleigh? The worst that could happen is ADVENTURES!

i got the most amazing news today! my passport should be in the mail by monday or tuesday! whee! yay USFG for not fucking this one up!

stalin once said that exposing poland to communism was like saddling a cow. lol. and then he made them be communists anyways. what a douche.

i’ve had an amazing day. i had lunch with mrs chamberlain and it was delicious and seeing her was wonderful. we talked about so many things including the role of women in the church and why she can still be catholic and some other things. she said that i can start going to church with her and that she’ll sponsor me for confirmation if/when i want to do that. it was really nice of her. and the way that she worded it was so great too. she just said “i’ve always wanted to sponsor someone” but never directly told me that she would be my sponsor. and I think it would be awesome to have her be my sponsor. because if anyone has kept my faith in christianity it has been her. she’s marvelous. we also talked about abortion and how her college roommate had one and how messed up her roommate has been ever since then. it’s a really shitty situation i think for everyone that has one and even though i’ll never look down on my friends that have had them (or anyone, mostly) i just really feel like society should look out for women and that women should make sure they are in the position where they are choosing birth control over abortion. we also talked about books and our lives and such as well. she says she basically runs the barb and allen bed and breakfast. lol. i think it would be nice to have a great house like theirs that has an extra room because then you could have lots of people stay over and that would just be great.

after dinner, i went to rahul’s for the pool party. we watched segments of team america that were really funny. the song about pearl harbor is awesome and so oddly timed. that movie came out like 5 years ago or something and team harbor is barely a year old. we also swam at like 4 or so and that was cool. a lot of his friends from LHS were there and the RYLA kids (tim, amanda f., amanda h., rahul, me, joe, and ben “arrowhead max”) all showed up. awesome. we told the same stories that happened last week but it was like they were brand new. and at the very least it was like they were still great. it was tons of fun and i really like swimming and stuff as well.

yesterday i hung out with beau who is that guy from my chem class we sat around drinking G&T and watching random dating shows on the TV. It was a lot of fun, especially given that we had never really had a conversation before. He’s from Garden City (interesting aside!). I was there from like midnight until 3 am or so and then i drove home and listened to the killers really loudly while i took the long way. Hot Fuss is one of the best album purchases I’ve made spontaneously. I really like Jack Johnson’s new one too but last night was a Killer’s night.

I’ve been spending lots more time with Sarah lately. I’ve missed her tons. She’s the most beautiful, understanding friend I have sometimes. She was great to hang out with and we went swimming. Someone puked in the pool! It was sweet. This girl was like “WHY WOULD YOU PUKE IN THE POOL!?” I wanted to hit her because no one intentionally pukes anywhere. I mean, honestly. Like the kid responsible for doing this set out to puke in the pool. Who does that?! Pish. So anyway. I hope that kid’s social skills never fully develop because he does’t have friends because he ruined their day at the pool. Actually it was only closed for maybe a half hour total and I still had a great time.

I talked to Beatty about Britain! Fuck yeah, I wanna go!

Also, I talked to Phil on the phone today. It was great to hear him. I miss him a lot more than I admit to myself sometimes and the people around here. I think i’m going to try to go see him at some point in my career as an astronaut*.

*note: i am not really an astronaut nor will i be i just like to say this and i will make a trend out of it.

someone killed himself in the park i always played in as a child. it makes me remember how shitty suicide is. I hope it was no one my parents knew. That could be really hard for them. but he was like 3 years older so unless he was Academy, i’m pretty sure the odds are good that they know him. Suck.