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hullo/goodbye
i’ll say no more tonight.
you know the way you feel
when you realize it’s so cold outside
and you know how you heard the words she said
and you know what she meant
when she said “you’re better off dead
kiss me one more time my dear
i’m gonna go to bed.”
you just can’t read through the accents

and when she’s happy it’s okay
that you lead her on and on
and all the while you leave her, you’re always gone.
this, that, why not. a reasonable excuse.

and yet you say i love you
and you even think you mean it.
goodnight, you say.
i love you, and when she’s happy it’s okay.

her face is flooded
with tears that fall
like rain during the sunrise.
her eyes are blue,
her hair’s like honey
her cheeks are rosy.
as she looks for an answer.

and what do you say to her
when you’re not listening?
what do you see
when you’re not looking?
where do you go
when you’re never with her?
what do you see in other girls?

this worlds not fair
the way it spins at a tilt
she’s always on the downside.
when she looks at you
she feels so up, up, up.
but everythings going so fast.
and you’re not even looking her way.
she’s just a good friend.
you love her in so many wrong ways.

look around you sweetheart.
buying her some chocolate
when some knew asshole is breaking her heart
just won’t cut it anymore.
she looks at you so silently, she’s longing
for just one more day with you.
there’s nothing she wants more
than a kiss in the sunset.

maybe she won’t wake up crying anymore.
maybe when she falls asleep
her starry eyes will close,
inside she’ll smile.
at least that’s what she hopes.
cuz when she thinks about you
she feels so close.
but deep down she knows
you’re so far away.
but what can you say?

sometimes i wish that i could crawl inside your soul
maybe you could make it all better for me.
i wish that you would crawl inside my arms
maybe you’d believe me when i said that everything will be okay. someday.
i wish that everything would be just fine for you.

and you don’t know how much i care.
but i can only think of you.
and i’m overexaggerating to express emotional truths.
i feel like if i cry too much
my heart will just cave in.
but i’d rather feel like i was dead.
than to feel this way again.
most of all i wish : that you want it this way too.

oh please just tell me.
that you love me, that you want me.
that i can try all of these new things with you.
oh please just let me.
beacuse it seems like such a waste of time
to feel this way and not say anything.

i only wish you knew.
that i could be everything for you.
but instead i stand here:
stupid, silent.

i’m mute.
you’re blind.

she holds her face in her hands
and she looks down at the floor.
she’s everything she wanted to be
but no one that she knows
and she loves him more than anyone
but he’s everyone that she hates
she doens’t know him anymore.
she doesn’t know herself anymore.

she doesn’t know much.
she doesn’t know anything.
she just knows that she’s so in love.
she just knows that she wants to be with him forever.
she thinks holding on to him
is like holding on to who she used to be.

and she can’t let him go.
and she can’t let him go.
he just sleeps and she lies there with him
he’s dreaming that she’s dead
he’s waking up in a cold sweat
and she’s sleeping. she’s sleeping. she’s sleeping.
she’s off to find herself
cuz she doesn’t know who she is
and she doesn’t know much anymore.
she doesn’t know who she used to be.
she just thinks that maybe at one time
maybe once she used to be happy.