worthless
i feel pretty sick and worthless. i just read madeline poetry about schmeg and it made me realize how truly terrible i’ve been about calling her back and everything. because everything i said on saturday was true. i think that she thinks that things happened with tommy that didn’t. we just hung out and talked and that was it. because i needed someone to talk to.. and its not like i can explain it to my mom or coordinate a schedule with a friend, i mean as it is i’m waiting for lacey to call me about the clint-drahma. i think what he said was really really asshole-ish of him. i don’t know. boys are such fucks sometimes. and i guess girls are too. but i don’t know. i just feel bad about me right now.