happy easter i think

i’m pretty nervous about easter today. its the first holiday since my uncle died. and the first holiday after a death is never a fun one. plus, it was only like a month ago that it happened. i don’t know. its so strange. i still haven’t really grieved about him. it hit me once and i got a little teary when we were driving in kansas city getting prom dresses but otherwise i’ve been in this daze and just ignored it.

i saw madeline on friday. we got chinese food and looked at tattoos and went to this great consignment store that i didn’t know existed.. then i just took her home. it was nice to see her again. i really wish we hung out more. i don’t see/talkto her enough.

i also saw thomas. becuse i went to manhattan to look at kstate again and try to get some of this college shit sorted out. i think i’m leaning toward KU or Washburn. but I don’t care so much about it at all anymore. shrug. I kind of want to sleep through all of college. arugh. i need to call KU and make an appointment with FinAid and woods to get my visit there going. and then i need to find out what dr. farley wants to do about meeting me at WU this week. growl. its just a pain in the ass.

have a nice easter.

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