somebody's heiney is crowding my icebox

i think that syncing my blog and my xanga is about the best decision i’ve ever made. in fact, i’m so happy with this decision i might even go through with my subscription idea in order to make it one step easier for me. it’s excellent, excellent progress in the world of jess.

in other news, i’m not worried about any of my finals. maybe, indeed, i should be. but i’m really not. i studied for my public speaking CN150 final yesterday and got an 85 on all 18 practice quizzes after reading 7 of the 18 chapters. while its obvious i did considerably better on the 7 chapter quizzes that i had read, there were some chapters that i absolutely do not need to study. and furthermore, my grades are gonna balance out so i don’t actually need a full 100 on that final. so i may just assume i learned something from doing poorly on some of the practice quizzes and that his questions will be easier than the books like whoa (midterm = 8 minutes of test) and go from there. we got our group speech grades back. first, i think its shitty that its one grade for all 4 people and that wasn’t clearly expressed on the syllabus. if this = B then jess will be an angry girl. cos that was absolutely not a B speech. second, gabe didn’t turn in his speech outline and i’m pretty sure we were docked for that. cos for the most part we all gave good speeches. blah.

i’m at the public library because i miss my computer and i needed to use a computer and i hate the WU unix systems. really. they’re absolutely pointless. so instead of going by mabee i went to pick up my car from my parents house with steve (Yay!! BB is back!!) and then took him to his car and i wandered over here until i need to go to my guitar lesson.

another roadside attraction is playing at the trap for a battle of the bands on saturday and i don’t get off work in time to see them. further, one of the competitors is currently employing me. so i’m not positive about who should take my vote. cos i like ara best. but augh, conflict of interest. eh. i haven’t seen any cash intake from the velvet hammers yet. no big deal. i’ll go if i get off work in time and then i’ll be okay.

oh! that longwinded reaction paper to the truth article was returned to me today. w00t. 98. and meg doesn’t really give 98s her idea of a perfect is a 94. so i’m so overly satisfied with myself and that class right now. even if i was verbally attacked today for a comment. i was describing postman’s view of multi-culturalism which he says is when a class with mostly black students gets taught about the triumphs of black culture and not about things like thomas edison and benjamin franklin’s lightbulb and electricity. and how even though it was because the white man was oppressing everyone else and that could be why other cultures didn’t invent as much during that time period, they’re important to the global culture as minorities. thus, we should teach diversity. so irving was like “how can you teach about multiculturalism if you’re white?” and made it sound like i was being racist or something. in fact, he said “you don’t understand our suffering.” which might be true. that i don’t understand it exactly. but you try being bisexual. bisexuality is barely acepted by the GL community. let alone straight people. and and try being a woman. i’d love to remind him that if he goes at gets a job he’ll make the full dollar but i still only get 75 cents. i just hate that myopia. inga muscio a great article on the subject that i think everyone should read. basically she just says that we shouldn’t only focus on our minority when trying to obtain equal rights and should instead fight to relieve all oppression and injustice. augh. it also really makes me mad because at the peace symposium he endorsed tactically nuking conflict areas to make them be peaceful. and his justification was basically “those people don’t really matter” which is ethnocentrism at face and i contend that american should be a race and therefore is racism too. so if you’re going to be a part of the problem don’t try to demean me for saying that we should embrace all cultures and not throw out white history just because in parts of it we were assholes (anglo-saxons were slaves too.) whoa. i blog whole five page papers a day.

i keep having nightmares right before i finally go to sleep. i don’t know why. probably stress. i can’t really remember them either. but i’m pretty sure i’m being kidnapped in them ecause i usually have dreams i’m being kidnapped when i’m stressed. and i always had that recurring nightmare when i was a little kid. this combined with my adopted status makes me wonder if maybe its related somehow. but its always my dad who rescues me in these dreams. so maybe its not really related. mayi’m probably just a headcase.

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