crestfallen

it snowed this evening. i know that mom doesn’t really love the snow or anything but i kinda like it and i think its absolutely beautiful tonight. when i drove into work there were these huge flakes falling and collecting in a powder on the ground. it just made everything look so nice an innocent and it really wasn’t that horrible to be out in, either.

joe and i went to a seminar/lecture on mexicans and meatpacking, speaking specifically of garden city. we tried to get tonya to go but we couldn’t find her. annaleigh also refused so we just went alone. it was actually a pretty good experience. they talked a lot about how beef is packaged which made me pretty glad i wasn’t eating it. that was about all that the seminar covered. afterward we talked to the speaker and he was talking about how cosmopolitan garden city is and how we should probably go there. so joe and i are going to go to garden city. we’ll take lots of pictures for tonya. w00t.

steve and i hung out tonight and i cried about my uncle again. this time i think i was actually sad and not just angry. its hard to remember he was a human being too. and subject to human being misery and anger and happiness and love even. i don’t know. i still resent him for a lot of what he’s cause his entire family even in the things he did pre-death. it gets a little better every now and then though, and i think eventually i’ll be able to actually grieve. oi. its such a long process.

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