baby, baby plz don't go

i’m moving out of the dorms today. this means that i am entirely packed up and for some reason i’m moving out a lot more than im moving in, go figure. i have three huge boxes full of stuff one of which is probably mostly trash but i’m too lazy to go through it.. the other two are all clothes. then i have a box of purses, bags and misc items, a box of books, a box of shoes and misc items, a box of random papers that i think i moved in in the same status or else they came out of a bookbag which seems more likely, two full bookbags, a lamp in a box, a duffell bag that has lip gloss spilled all over the bottom of it so i can’t use it or empty it yet… grah. next week when i get to move back into my house is going to be awesome. growl.

this is pretty sad. is been like since august so that’s 9 months that I’ve lived here and its the first place other than my parents house that I’ve lived and even though I switched rooms this is still really hard to do because i’m leaving everyone and i’m so sad about it. i’ve met so many great people this past year and had so much fun hanging out with people and learning from myself and them.. its awesome.

i also miss steve a whole lot. we’ve been hanging out civilly again which is good because for a while there we’d hang out but it was just like us fighting for the whole time. i’m really glad that things are nice between us again. i got really reminiscent of him today while i was taking all of my stuff down because there are so many memories of him, etc.

Man, i was thinking about how I only get 3 more years of this stuff.. whoa. i don’t know what i’m gonna do.. this is probably the happiest i’ve ever been with myself (even though i’ve hated myself the past few weeks) and i don’t know… its just all crazy. and i’m all happy and i’m going to miss everyone very very very very much.

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