what friends are for
augh. life. it’s crazy. yesterday was mothers day and i pretty upset about being adopted for a variety of really strange reasons. i went to mass with joe mostly because i had it scheduled on his little dry-erase magnets where i keep his schedule as a joke for when his parents came.. but then it was still scheduled and it was either jesus/b-16 worshipping or writing papers so i went ahead and went to the b-16 festival. the message was pretty cool. i don’t really like talking publicly about spiritual breakthroughs because i usually fall away from them within a matter of days… but i felt pretty peaceful at mass. maybe it was just the ritualistic meditation but it was pretty cool. i prayed for openness and all of that stuff and then just kind of listened and it was neat because the priest talked about some of the specific things that i don’t like about religion, esp christianity, and countered them pretty well. so that’s always cool. plus the mormons that we were witnessing to c-unit last week let me read an article about women in the church and the importance of women by president hinckley. so i guess God works in mysterious ways. Most of which are “against the church” as Joe put it. Oi. There was also talk of the importance of women which is what made me get sad about being adopted. just because i can’t explain or tell my biological mother how grateful i am to her for doing what she did. and my biological father as well.. they were so selfless in their decision and i ended up with a really great life and pretty rad parents because of it. maybe i’ll find God this summer, but I guess we’ll see.
The weather was really strange yesterday as well. It seemed to be patterning my moods. Whenever I was upset or there was upsetting events going on around me it got really rainy and the rest of the time it was nice or not nice accordingly. Bizarrity!
I got pizza and Joe managed to trick me into calling this woman a cunt. We were talking about birth control (Joe and I were) and I said that I would probably eventually change to the lunar rythm method and then said that I’m kind of leary of it because the author who endorsed it has had three abortions so it could be terribly ineffective.. though i kinda think that they were all before she was using any sort of birth control or at least not using them well.. and he was like “what author?” and i said “inga muscio” and we were leaving at this point so as I start to walk behind this woman at the counter he’s like “what book?” and i just say “Cunt” and i’m like RIGHT behind her when this happens. It is perfectly timed, haha. We both just kept our heads down and kept walking. Oi.
At night, Joe and I went to the lakehouse with Jarred and we watched matchstick men and then went and got penne and pesto at walmart so that i could cook some dinner (yummy!) and jarred bought these afterschool specials on dvd and we watched them which got me upset about being adopted again because it was from th perspective of a reluctant dad whose baby momma was giving the baby up for adoption. The important/fun part of the night though was the time when we had phone sex (all three of us) because Jarred somehow won like 100 free phone sex off of the internet so we called and asked this one girl if she was into having sex with robots and then Joe continued to go off about sex with robot quips finally just saying random ones and zeros while Jarred yelled “fuck me in binary! fuck me in binary!” it was beyond awesome.