Dont think cos I'm easy i'm naive

The other day Tyler was hanging out at my house with me while I worked on Christmas presents for my friends. I’ve going for a personalized theme and a really sweet gift package that I can’t go into details about because some people read this and will be receiving the presents. (Read: Cara could be snooping.) Anyway. So we were talking while I was designing and he said after I showed him the first completed package that I should start commercially producing crafts. Or something like that. I certainly enjoyed the encouragement in my craftwork, et cetera, and I’m not sure that he was serious at all… but I’ve thought more about it and decided that maybe this is something I could do.

I think I have a pretty clever eye and there are some things that I could make that would be marketable right away:
1) Bottle-cap necklaces (something I’ve already done and enjoy the artistry of)
2) Journals (something I’ve been meaning to try my hand at)
3) Knit cases for electronics (my specialty)
4) Digital art (something I have far too much experience in)
5) Knit hats and scarves (It is the winter… and it is fun.. and theoretically i’ll have my first one done at some point over break but if I was really dedicated AND learned to count i could probably crank out two or three or maybe up to four by the time break is over)
6) Sewn things made from old t-shirts mom is making me get rid of anyway

So I’m really excited about this new prospect. I need to solidify a name for my “product line” which I’ll be designing and slap up some web space. But really… This should be fun, keep me occupied, make me feel worthwhile, and affirm my talent in something I really enjoy doing. How fun. I’ll post pictures of my christmas present packages when I finish giving them out.

Speaking of Cara, she and I had a really nice conversation about where my life, love or otherwise, is going and I think it was productive. It’s nice to be wholly honest with someone and not worry about their feelings on the issue or whatever. Not that I don’t enjoy my general honesty with everyone else. I’m glad I’m not hiding anything anymore. And hopefully I never do that to myself or anyone else again. Cara was right when she said that what I have to get over is the guilt for what I did. I mean, like dead on. Because that’s what I have the hardest time with. Trying to figure out how and why I did this to someone who I still say I care about. I don’t know what’s really happening in that area. I guess break should give us some time to get past it and figure out ourselves and our lives and all of that. Sometimes I wish I had a slightly more open relationship with my mom. Or that she could acknowledge that it doesn’t really matter that I’m young. But then, I think it’s just me that perceives our relationship as not being open that way. I usually feel better after speaking with her.

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