i saw the constant gardener this weekend. it turns out it was an awesome movie. the plotline according to imdb’s summary actually made me think it would probably be a little lame so i went into it not expecting much, but then i read that it was by the guy that made city of god and i’ve heard amazing things about that movie so i decided it was worth giving a shot to anyway.
my brother and i rented the nightmare before christmas tonight but there was trouble at the movie store. i kept having a really difficult time remembering whether nightmare started with a k or an n. now this seems a lot dumber than it is in truth. mostly i was just thinking about the word “night” and not putting it in the context of the movie title. so i just kept wandering around trying to figure out where in the alphabetical lineup i’d find the flick. we finally found it. i also realized that “The Knight’s Mare Before Christmas” could be a decent movie for anyone who may or may not be looking to direct a new movie. Lol. As for Tim Burton’s Nightmare, it was alright. I don’t think it was as good as I thought it would be but I was really impressed with the animation and how it didn’t seem like it was much longer than an episode of any of my favorite cartoons. Hm. Devon hated it because he doesn’t like “sing alongs”
Rehnquist is dead, it seems. What’s a country to do? I, for one, am hoping that everyone else on this court survives for another few years. At least until Bush can’t nominate new people. Or maybe just until there is no one to confirm a new justice. Though I’m no longer opposed to the overturning of Roe v. Wade so I don’t really know what I’m in a huff about. GAY RIGHTS, CIVIL RIGHTS, oh my! Here’s to a slow and thorough nomination process. Cheers.
your barely kempt blonde hair is a signal flare
my eyes can’t help but follow
as you grow smaller and smaller
reflecting me, optically, as a beast
i become the terror in your eyes
if you ever wasted your time to look at me
and you kept growing smaller and smaller
but i could only master wasting away
does every thing you see demand, eat me?
and what of when it does?
i’m not strong enough, little alice
i can’t take this surreal reality
what would they think if i were only a blurred reflection in your looking glass?
my ipod and ibook came sometime last week and class started as well. i know i haven’t blogged in forever. it’s because i hate the layout. and when i hate the layout i pretty much hate going to the website at all which makes it pretty effin difficult to actually blog. although the layout is completely different where i actually do the blogging so i don’t know why this always happens, but it does. expect a new layout hopefully by the end of the weekend. but it’s hard to say because that depends on me getting home and getting photoshop on my lappy and stuff.
i love the new ibook. there are some obvious things that i don’t like about osx. for one, i prefer My Documents to the harddrive thing, even though i only have to click once after I open the harddrive. it doesn’t matter to me. i want a my documents menu. i will look into doing this at some point but until then i’ll just complain about it and wish for something better. the dashboard is great too. although i always used the quicklaunch menu on the left side of my monitor when i used the HP exclusively and so it’s basically the same thing. dashboard is just prettier, disappearing, easily editable, and animated. oh and it disappears when i don’t need it. how CONVENIENT. the software is pretty great too. i like adium more than trillian. this could be because the buddy list is smaller (Though i could’ve done that with trillian, mostly) and it will let me talk on gadu-gadu so i’ve gotten to reconnect with some polish friends. i need to make an effort to IM-email everyone that i met there, because so far i just haven’t. uggh. i need to figure out imming on jabber/gadu-gadu as well.
i don’t know. life has been insane. in fact, i literally have gone insane. i hate it. i was so in control of my head for a few years and then it’s like i went to poland and the new setting made me lose it so i got really fucking bipolar and then i sorta had a grip on it (of course i was doing nothing..) and now school has started and i’m taking 18 hours, working 16 hours, studying in the mean time, and forensicating. FUX0RZ! what was I thinking? i wasn’t handling it at all. I’ve had about 4 anxiety attacks in the past 2 weeks. and I hate panic attacks. i’d rather die most of the time than have one. but i went to the nurse after the 3rd one and they gave me an Rx for some beta blockers so that my heart won’t throw me into a panic attack. i think they’re really good. yesterday was my first waking day on them and there were a few times that i was panicky but my body just stopped. i felt the panic in my head and then it just subsided when my heart realized it wasn’t beating fast enough to throw me into convulsions. what a bloody douche bag. i also like them a lot because they aren’t restructuring my emotional chemistry so i don’t feel like a zombie like i usually do on psychotropes. oi.
one day i will again remember what it feels to be alive.
speaking of alive, this hurricane madness is really making me angry. we’ve talked about it in all but one of my classes now and it just disgusts me how ignorant all levels of government were in proactively handling this situation. ugh. and a lot of people treat it like “why didn’t they evacuate” but they were poor and didn’t have the means too. and the governor only got mad when they started looting. and congress is taking forever. and oh man, i just wish that people cared more about each other when they needed it, not just when it looked good to do it.
you buzz like a bad hit song on the radio
humming this is ours through static
like this was owed to us
as if tragedy can be measured
by the number of houses that fall
or the bodies that wash up on the shore
somewhere, somewhere someone recognizes the sounds
trees cracking like nature is attacking with all the force it possesses
counting its own as collateral
and grimacing, while people keep counting
the merit of one person
by the number of hands that wave goodbye
or the number of eyes that cry.
today i ordered a new 14″ ibook to replace my stupid broken hp laptop. i’m ridiculously excited about this. bordering on turned on by all of the new software and design prospects. oh wow. yum. i’ve found replacements of OpenOffice.org and Trillian so now I just need the new computer to start playing with it. I may also have to find a good piracy program.. not that i pirate much.. just sometimes. and i need to rip the old data off of my laptop but i can’t do that until the top of next week (and after i get the laptop) because i need a hardware adapter and the kansas computer recylcing center on kansas doesn’t have them in until then. but they were megahelpful when i went in there and i sort of love them just for being great anyway. so everyone should go there. SUPPORT LOCAL BUSINESS, oh my!
apple has a special deal right now where if you are a student they’ll throw in a free ipod mini with your qualifying mac product (that means not a mac mini or 12″ ibook, my friends!). it works like a rebate so you can get an 4gig mini or get any other BETTER iPod, 6gig mini or the 20 or 60 gig new iPod and they’ll knock 179 dollars off of it and you just cover the rest. yours truly couldn’t pass this offer up so i will also be the proud owner of a new 20 GB ipod with personalization: “it’s quiet here/except for this song” which is an ani lyric from “welcome to:” oh my, what a great idea!
i was looking at the hardware that should be coming to my house and finished reading everything there was to read about my new iPod so i decided i should look at the lesserPods to see how much better mine is going to be (a lot!) and i realized that the way they market these little beasts is crazy.
the text on the iPod website introduces it as: “Welcome to the best of both worlds. Now that iPod and iPod photo are one and the same, every white iPod boasts a full-color display ? ideal for viewing album artwork and playing slideshows ? starting at only $299. Choose from 20GB or 60GB models and carry up to 15,000 songs or as many as 25,000 photos in your pocket. For Mac or PC.” Basically, they underplay the thing. You’ll notice this as a trend when you realize how talked up the other versions are…
the iPod Mini gets the following discription: This season?s must-have accessory? Your music. Listen in style with iPod mini, from just $199. Like any classic fashion icon, iPod mini goes with everything: Macs, PCs, sequins and tees. And with up to 18 hours of battery life, it?ll outlast the latest trend. Choose from 4GB or 6GB (super)models in kicked-up colors and show off your music collection. So if the iPod is so good you don’t have to talk about it then the iPodMini is it’s gay little brother. Like “well he’s a lot smaller, he doesn’t have very many friends.. but um… he knows how to wear a fedora. and you probably won’t be able to get into any decent parties unless you look really cool and stuff… dammit i don’t know… his brother is the quarterback just be nice to the little queer.”
and then the iPod Shuffle. So bizarre and quirky they have to make things up: “Time to mix things up. Meet iPod shuffle, the unpredictable new iPod. What will it play next? Can it read your mind? Can it read your moods? Load it up. Put it on. See where it takes you. Choose from pocket-size 512MB or 1G models starting at $99(1) and surprise yourself.” so this one is apparently a superhero, OR IS IT?! it should be noted that the iPod shuffle will ONLY shuffle your music so you have to load specific playlists or just be annoyed and not listen to music. also… its tiny like fits comfortably on a keychain tiny… and has no reader screen so you have to recognize what you’re listening to or be forever in the dark about the songs you’re “jamming” too. Surprise yourself with how dumb you are. Ugh.
We won’t get into the iPod U2 because i’m not a fan of their music.
ps. i can’t explain to you how happy it makes me that starbursts are sorted in a static order. delicious!
i’m working on a new layout for my domain that i’m pretty excited about but i need some stock photos (well, just one really) of either a girl or a couple kissing. so i was looking on the stock exchange site that i use for some pictures of this sort. i’d already looked for various versions of “girl” and “punk girl” so i gave “love” a whirl this time. now, i’ve had a lot of really random luck with this search to begin with because it turned up random things like donkeys standing next to each other and PRESIDENT ABRAHAM LINCOLN! freakish. There were also other strange things…
My favorite was a photo entitled “What you talking bout Willis?” The photo is of an iguana and it is accompanied by the disclaimer: “Pic taken at the zoo in the reptile house. I’d love to see how this gets used. Please let me know. Please don’t use to incite hate.” Oh my. Hate of what? Iguanas? Or like Asians? Not that Iguanas are confirmed as being from Asia or not… I’m just saying… I think Fred Phelps should use the image of this particular iguana to inspire his militia. And WHY does the search term “LOVE” bring up this fine fellow? He looks like he’s just good for a fuck, i wouldn’t call him the next day.
caitlin had a movein party last night and i made it up to lawrence to be in attendance. i had a good time for the most part. other than chris, this guy from the coffeehouse apparently, who kept trying to direct a really really bizarre porn starring the people who had escaped to caitlin’s room to get away from game after game of tipcup going on in the living room. oh man. crazy times. mostly i just hung out with joe and tom, but i got to see david skoglund and we taught him what it means to be a VIRGIN FOR LIFE! whee.
tom, joe, and i left the party in search of pizza and went to pizza shuttle where joe and i watched tom eat while we drank soda. then we went to munchers. the trip to munchers ended in catastrophe when tom stole my camera and ran out of the bakery and joe and i had to chase him around the parking lot but i fell and skinned up my knee and foot. What were we thinking?!
It was a good party. But drinking in Lawrence is starting to get a terrible track record with me. Too many scars. And I have a bruise on my face because the wonderful sloshed Caitlin dropped a camera on my face. Oh snap.
