Category: Journal

so my roommate came by again and i don’t feel quite the way i did when i wrote that other entry. i think it’ll probably be okay and maybe its just that her aunt is so like overbearing or something. idk. maybe itll be awful and i’ll have to change rooms, but you know. i’ll deal with it.

i rescued a fish today. it has a new house (yes its gravel coordinates with my bed). no it does not have a name. it needs one though. very badly.

i think my favorite thing about college is that i have so many friends that are all so close. i’m really exhausted though from doing to much all week. last night i went over to kim/adam’s for adam’s birthday after i got off work. it was a whole lot of fun.

i’m feeling really lame tonight and just want to take a nap.

My roommate stopped by yesterday evening. I don’t really know how its going to work out. she seems like a whiny little spoiled johnson-county bitch. but whatever. i can always transfer roommates… now i’m incredibly homesick though. just to be somewhere that i don’t have to worry about dumbfuck roommates that are moving in on sunday or monday.

yesterday we went to the great mall of the great plains in olathe… i bought new jeans at aeropostale for 12.49 as well as a new pair of pj pants. the pajamas say “whale of a good time” and have whales all over them and are therefore awesome. i love them. its such a beautiful inside joke that i had to buy them right away. and luckily the girl working there couldn’t ring up anything right and rang them up as 9.99 with 50% off instead of 14.99 with 50% off. so $5 for something that’s so funny is a pretty good deal. when you get right down to it. stephanie and lacey and i were the only ones that went and we had a blast hanging out and driving there. even if lacey always seems to drive to far and we never make it there on the first attempt without turning around. for that matter, she almost missed the exit coming home. good thing steph was paying attention. cos i sure as hell wasn’t.

we didn’t get back until around 5 or so and then lacey and i hung out in her dorm with steph for a little while then we ate and came back here until the “Daze of WU” which was a fun chance at 7 to tye-dye tshirts. my hands are still so fucking stained from all of the dye. i guess that’s alright though. its fun to be blue every once in a while.

lacey’s suitemate kristen is really hella cool and fun to hang out with so she was with us for dinner and the daze.. then josh came over to the dorms and svd stopped in for a little while. it was a nice time. after that we went out because i wanted/want a mirror and some other things (its crazy how much you don’t realize that you’ll need when you’re moving out! ) but we ended up just driving around after i bought silverware and josh/lacey bought some other things for themselves. so josh played this song by this one band.. sanctus real maybe? idk. they’re god-rock. and it was called “Say Goodbye” and we all cried. but mostly just me. because im going to miss josh so incredibly much and i just don’t know how i’ll handle it without him. i know i’m making new friends and hanging out with tons of people and sometimes i don’t feel like i have enough time for the people that im really good friends with from high school and stuff but i’ll always wish josh were around.

i also kind of feel like i’m spending too much time away from my dorm and not enough time getting to know people on my floor and in the hall and the building. svd says that it’ll get better once classes start and i’m talking to people in there more often and i assume she must be right. plus, its only been like a day and i totally don’t have a roommate (still). dammit.

i did break out of the topeka loop and hang out with daniel/marcus from about 11 pm till about 4 am last night. yikes. it was fun. we had a lot of conversation spanning from politics to dating to learning about and from girls to sex. it was nice. daniel is such a nice kid. he’s kinda funny sometimes… by way of he just tries to hard to be a nice guy… and he’s just so genuinely nice that i wish he could just see that he is actually nice and doesnt need to try to impress anyone. i was incredibly impressed the first time i met him and that was well before he had read any books about dating. lol.

we all broke out (and steph came too!) to go to the Sex, Slides, and Suriving the College Years. Some went for the free condoms. Some went for the gross slides. I went because I wanted to bitch about how they don’t talk about protected lesbian sex. lol. i’ll raise it as an issue at a later date. because honestly: its such an unknown ground and i don’t think much of anyone thinks about anything along the lines of safe sex for girls. and really i think there are a few more precautions and ideas for safe sex for guys that everyone could benefit from. the room was terribly funny as the ratio of girls to guys was like 30:daniel. lol. and there were a couple of the people who head up the whole event. it was pretty informative really though. when you get right down to it.

i need to let my batter callibrate for a while.. not to mention i need to go down to financial aid and argue my bill. motherfuckers. getting it wrong? what!

I have to blog in notepad today, which is really too bad. because i don’t have internet yet. but its coming and when it does come it will be like 400 thousand times faster than it is at home. which is awesome.

moving in didn’t go too badly. i guess. the family and i went out for breakfast before we did the moving in stuff. mom was even nice and let me sleep in. so i think i slept about 9 hours last night. and its always wonderful to get tons of sleep. hooray. she was a little bitchy at ihop but i think we’ve just all been hella stressed out about my moving out.

i cried this morning when i got outside but other than that i’ve been doing pretty well. i didn’t really cry at all. i’m sad right now though cos my room mate isn’t here and i feel like everyone has all of these instant friends and i just don’t have any. pish. oh well. i guess i just really thought that she would be here today.. but alas, she is missing.

i’ve made a lot of friends. my suitemates are hella cool and there was a kid down the hall that was into computers and stuff. he has a single room and its all very hardcore. lol. i started talking to him because he had a “there are 10 types of people in the world those that know binary and those that don’t.”

daniel and svd and lacey are here too of course. lacey’s suite is pretty nice. although it really reminds me of the microlodge at church camp and just doesn’t feel college-y at all. but lacey seems to really like it a whole lot which is grand. they’re at least a little bigger. the llc is just cool cos it’s such a community. i like it a whole lot so far.

my favorite memory of the whole day was when i decided with lacey and her suitemate kristen that we should bunk/raise my beds. so we did. this involves using this mallet to release the metal thing the matress sits on and then we had to get both sides apart so that we could raise the whole thing and we finally did that and then we had to shove it back in. and we did all of this without actually removing the matress or any of the shit on the bed. christ. it was a much more intelligent plan when we did the second one because we actually took off the matress. of course when i was moving the matress i ended up like spinning around with the matress completely on my back. like some sort of pillowy turtle. it was insanely funny. even though we all looked like dorks. really. big. dorks. so we finished raising both matresses and then we had to go ahead and bunk the beds. which was also crazy. cos kristen and lacey were on one side and i was alone on my side so theres got done and i was like “um guys. . this isn’t right. at all..” lol. i’m gonna take pictures of the room really soon. cos i’m really excited about it.

and i really love college. really.

i move out tomorrow. right now i have tons of tension in my back but i think that’s just because. but its to the point that i can’t really ignore it. argh. i hate it. i guess mom and the family and i are going to go out to breakfast then buy my microwave and tv and then move in. should be fun? eh. yah.

last night lacey and i went to lawrence and had drinks at Free State Brewery then walked to the train station to see Kerry come through. first we went to the long one. which was no big deal cos we were just walking and we got to walk over the river which was fun because water is pretty even when it does make up one of the most polluted rivers in the us. and we were with brian, sam, and spin who were friends of friends or on the campaign. brain/sam were very cool. they’ll be a senior and a junior at washburn this year and they were giving us advice most of the night. it was nice to get to know some boys i wouldn’t usually get to know.

after we got the right train station we stood in the crowd for a while then decided to walk down the tracks (via sidewalk) a ways. we were sitting around waiting for the train to go through and i called colby who was there with taylor/leandra. they came down and we talked for a little while. it was nice to see colby. when the first train (not the kerry train) went through, Sam and I were heading to his car to get a jacket for me cos i was freezing but the train went through so we went back to the huge group of people and i just stole body warmth.

we were by the people with signs that said “kerry kills” and “bush = kerry” and they had reasons why like “they’re pro free trade, anti gay marriage, etc etc” and signs that said “war is never justified”. so ia sked the kerry kills sign girl if she endorsed anyone. and she shrugged and said no. so she was an anarchist. which is stupid. because anarchy is like extremely free trade. anarchy is no marriage. and along the lines of the “war is never justified” kids.. you’re white. you’re standing on american soil. your ancestors killed native americans to stand there. unless you are in some way taking responsibility for these actions.. shutthefuckup.

the kerry train just drove by. but kerry was on the back deck of it so we got to see him. and it was very rally-esque. i felt like a democrat. lots of adrenaline. call me a dork, but i thought it was exciting. even if they didn’t stop.

we went to munchers/java break following the station then we went to miles’ house and had a lot of intellectually stimulating conversation about a plethora of thigns. like not voting for nancy boyda, anarchism, communism, st thomas acquinas, language, and the peace corps.

i got home at 4. mom’s mad because i got home at 3. but hey. what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her.

i’m uber excited about college.

so you’ve all noticed i’m sure that csnet has been down for a few days. i guess it got back up yesterday? it went down sunday. and stayed there monday. this is the fault, i guess, of dr2.net my host for not renewing it soon enough. but it wasn’t that big of a deal because only my url expired.. nothing else and now its back up and i get a free year of this domain. so rock on. and go me. expect a new layout soon. its all in my head right now. which is too bad cos i do really like this one and its been good for the summer but i’ve had it up for so long! i mean, goodness.

the election was yesterday. it was a good time. except that iw orked 17.5 hours. which is well more than i needed to be working. it started at 6am and i basically just sat on the phones until 9 pm and then they sent me out to pick something up and i royally fucked it up so then cindy and i went back out. i really like cindy. and all of the people there. they’re equally wonderful. i think i’m going to miss it. i’ll probably especially miss eric. because he’s been the most fun and we’re about the same age and close enough in personality that we really get along. i told him yesterday that we should go out for sushi sometime because we both like it and its rare that someone finds another sushi-lover in kansas. so hopefully we won’t lose touch. at the very least he’s going to washburn too so i’ll have to hunt him around campus a little.

i move out on sunday. or move in. i can’t decide which it is. prolly moving in. i have all my shit packed. in liqour boxes. that’s how beautiful mom is. she goes to get me boxes to pack in and they’re all from a liquor store. here’s the filing system: bottoms in lord calvert; tshirts in jack daniels; nice shirts in budweiser; pajamas in bud light; hoodies in mgd. hiss.

i also bought my books the other day. which wasn’t that big of a fiasco . thank god. and then today my car broke. which will be expensive but i called and bitched about the price and it magically came down 40 dollars from what they told me to what they told my mom. lol. car fixer places are so funny. i asked if i could buy the part myself. they said no. then they said that the part was only about 60 anyway. and i asked what the hell they were charging me for then. so then he was like “well let me go see how much it will be…” and he said 233. and mom had said 270. bitches.

i’m really fucking pissed about my car. but on the bright side of things: madeline had an interview for a job today and she thinks it went well. oh yippee yi ki yay. hooray.

i talked to my roomate today. trena. she seems really cool. i’m not worried about it at all now. well i still am a little. she said that she really likes jessica simpson. lol. i said i’m addicted to the ashlee simpson show. lol. (especially after she dyed her hair, yum). but you know. she seems nice and she’s excited about school and she said she’s pre-med. so that means i may not see her for long periods of time. lol. in the event that it doesn’t work out. i really think it will though.

my brother bailed on the braid+guk+murderbydeath (and others?) show. but madeline is going in his place so it looks like its all okay anyway. i’m just exhausted today and i’m hoping i’ll be more alert tomorrow. i’m gonna go to madsee’s to pick her up after work tomorrow and we can always crash for a little while if i need to (she’s always game for sleeping). lol. i’m super excited. cos i’ve been saying all summer that i’d go when the damn show was in town. and now it is and i am actually going. i wanna mosh. so i guess guk is just gonna have to pick up the pace then. lol.

i received roommate info in the mail today. hooray. im so excited now. i just need to talk to her at some point. i tried to call around 5 when i got the letter but there was no answer, or ringing either for that matter. eep. i’m really excited about the whole mess. mostly the not working for elections anymore. although ill miss the people there. especially eric and peachy. they’ve made it a lot more fun. everyone else is pretty great too though. argh. i’m working and i think i’m gonna try to read more of the 9/11 commission report. and try not to melt up in here. its damn hot.

so i’m completely in love with bill clinton. and hilary clinton too, for that matter. i just can’t help myelf. and everyone’s known it all along, haven’t they? i bet so. i just… augh. i wish i could not work tomorrow and the next day so that i could stay home and sleep and watch the convention. yummy. not to mention the politics part is pretty cool too. i guess this means its okay that joshie is gone this week cos i’m busy being a democrat anyway.

speaking of josh and politics… last weekend he and i went out to pts on friday. and we saw the bourne surpremacy. PTs was filled with tons of philosophical political talk partially on the part of me about how i think the country needs to uphold certain universal values and then find policies that best support them. i think we should always be trying to maximize life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. because those are the most obvious values that the US would try to uphold. it was a good conversation. i like josh cos he keeps my mind working. intellectual stimulation is important.

linda (woman i work with) does not support women in the military. she says that there are just tons of reasons why that shouldn’t be. i said that i think that women should be in the military because if there are reasons why women shouldn’t be then dammit men shouldn’t either. and she said that women are weaker. and i said that the army doesn’t draft by strength as it is. and that women’s lesser strength is mostly due to our sociological conditioning that a weak women is goddamn sexy. i also told of my trouble attempting to register with selective service. linda said i was brainwashed by the feminist movement. i said that i wasn’t alive for the feminist movement. she says it still happens today. i don’t think it does as strong as it should you know? there’s still so far for us to go. i never contended that i get alone with linda anyway so this debate didn’t really bother me. peachie said she thought it was good that i tried to register for the draft. so there.

i bought braid, moneen, the get up kids, and murder by death tickets today. take that bitches. i can’t wait!! its friday at 9 which means that i’ll leave town around 8:15 or so. maybe earlier. devon is going with me. i’m glad he gets to go to concerts even though he’s young.. cos i never got to and that was really lame. although it pisses me off that parents are generally stricter with the older kids. so parents: don’t do that.

slash me waves goodbye while drooling over bill clinton on tv. i miss his state of the unions.

i bought towels that are bright orange and a pink box and an orange box and a white foldable hamper and a pink shower tote thing. even though i share a shower with only three other girls… i guess its still necessary to have my own bag thing for the process.

i’m so excited about college. no joke. i want to move out and have fun and KNOW WHO MY ROOMMATE IS (i still don’t) and all kinds of stuff. i’m giddy. in other news: i only work late on wednesday this week. and i only work at the cap-j on tuesday/saturday. so its a pretty happy day/week. because i really wanted to go to the braid concert on friday and now i’m going to. i’m just gonna come home and take a longass nap before i go out. then devon/maybe-madeline/and i are gonna go to lawrence. hooray.