Author: Jess

so i went home at about 9:30 last night because I was too sick to handle it. My temperature was at like 99.3 when I got home… up from my usual 97.4… so that was no good news, but at least I was actually sensing that I had a fever. Sometimes I feel like I do but then I don’t and that kind of annoys me.

I talked to my mom and dad about Kyle then for a while. It was a pretty good conversation. Basically a repeat of the one I had with Dr. Morse the other day… (that I’m sure got relayed to Bearman given his lack of criticism of Kyle and pseudo apology for giving me an emotional breakdown.) I mean, like I said, i know that I have this problem being out of a relationship. I’m just no good at it. For one, when I’m not in a relationship I rush into insincere ones… and sometimes it’s hard for me to tell when feelings are sincere and when they’re not sincere. But my feelings for Kyle are sincere. And i can say that because I know when I’m just pretending my feelings are sincere and when I’m not. I’ve had a crush of whatever degree on Kyle for a long time and I’m excited that I get to date him now. So I think that conversation went well. I know that in some ways they’re just really concerned about me. There is also somewhat of a generation gap that we have to overcome.

I worked out again yesterday! Yay! I bought this neoprene belt that you wrap around yr waist when you exercise and it makes is so that you sweat more there which burns fat there of course. It’s pretty much the sweetest thing I’ve ever used. I mean, seriously. It’s awesome. And so I worked out. I did 20 minutes on the bike and then all the exercise machines that work out my arms and legs and then i did some crunches. I never do crunches. I was excited that they went so well. My favorite part of the whole adventure was that i was reading The Elegant Universe by Brian Green while biking. Hah. How typically college.

Alright. I’m going back to trying to come up with a new layout for this silly blog again. Agh. I hate how uninspired I am these days.

So I overslept for work tonight which is no good. It turns out that this is because I am dreadfully ill, which is worse news. So I think I have a fever. Plus I’m coughing and spreading germs all over. I’ll probably try to leave by 10 at the latest. I mean, I only want to subject people to my disease for so long, you know.

On the bright side… My cellyphone line is eligible for a 2 year contract upgrade about 6 months sooner than I expected it to be. This can only mean one thing: NEW IPHONE IN JUNE INSTEAD OF DECEMBER. Oh yes. Oh yes oh yes oh yes. Fuck. That’ll be so damn sexy.

Today I bought a Thai cookbook (Two)! Yum. I’ve been sad and lonely feeling all day. I don’t know what my problem is.

I changed my political views on facebook today back to Very Liberal. Despite my confusion about my political views, I think this makes the most sense. First, I think Very Liberal just suggests crazy left-wing and I’m probably a little of that. In this country, I think Left just means Subversive and has really nothing to do with the size that you want the government to be. Further, sometimes Left means Socialist. And I think that if I had free domain over my political views on facebook I’d probably be an anarcho-syndicalist. Which means I think that people should live together and share our resources and work together for the good of the whole. This means that I’m basically still a socialist. Since I’ve now met my second or third intelligent anarchist I feel comfortable speaking of my love for anarchy. Although I still think it’s probably unrealistic, large-scale. That I’m too much of a hypocrite for it, small-scale. And I’m as-of-late unsure if I even believe that I would have a mac if I didn’t have a government to subsidize computers when they were first starting out.

i actually do

I do not actaully want to go to japan.

I woke up today feeling stragely not sick, even though waking up feeling sick has been the norm for the last five days. I dreamt about going to Chicago. I dreamt about the public library being half-grocer half-library. What a brilliant idea! I woke feeling like I should live outside of the circumstances of my current life for the summer, I’m not sure what this means, but getting out of town for a while seems like a lot of fun, potentially.

So I figured I’d check Spring/Summer fashions on Old Navy’s website because Im into that sort of thing (trying to pretend to be a fashionista). So I go there. And Baby doll dresses are making a return. What the fuck? I understand that things of the eighties got trendy recently but do we have to move into the mid 90s so soon? Please, please no.

I wish I were more fucking responsible with money. Agh. The only thing I have going for me is all the checks I have yet to cash and my tax refund which will hopefully be awesome.

Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.