Category: Journal

‘someday when things go wrong again we’ll burn this city down.’ i’ve missed my tra-la-la-di-da mix so much. so many memories associated with all the songs. mostly of me driving around being crazy and thinking a lot of thinking. i haven’t heard firedoor in awhile. its funny cuz i hate the version of the song on the mix. shrug. riley gave ani points today because of her rapping bawitdiba part of the song. but he said that he will never be able to tolerate her. i just hope he starts to tell someone about how he heard a song like that and then realizes that it was ani. and then he stops and turns red. that would make it worth it.

homecoming is tomorrow. i’m wearing my prom dress to the parade (to get another wear out of it) that and i want to be a sea lass. mmhm. mermaid party. even though my dress ic ompletely non-mermaid. it COULD be. and its a good excuse to wear it. i thik i’m going to paint the showing parts of my body red so that its like school spirit or some shit. mmhm. sounds like fun.

i wrote something about the flag yesterday that i keep meaning to post. i think it was good. mostly because it was about the flag and guantanamo bay. i’ll probably post it sometime later. at i&p. i have a new hostee named mandi but i haven’t emailed her the stuff yet. so i’m going to do that soon too. so if you’re reading this i promise, its coming.

i saw madeline today.

i dream about getting a bright red brand new toyota camry and hiding it from my mom in the back yard. i dream about leaving my computer outside and it still turning on, despite the flood waters. i dream about some girl whose back hurts so bad and i am that girl int he dream but i was everyone in the dream. and so i ignore the one with the hurt back. i wake up and my back hurts.

i’m really in a terrible mood right now and madeline and i fought earlier today and i hate that and i hate everything and i can’t talk to her and i don’t feel like talking to anyone else.

jess says: i got a new fishie
jarod says: hehehe
jess says: his name is zared
jess says: http://theprettymachine.chaostasis.net/images/orangeshirt/0004.jpg
jarod says: hehe
jess says: he’s fat. all he does is eat. i swear. and he’s gotten to wear he even gets excited when i’m all up in his grill cuz he thinks he’s gonna get food. i love him so much
jess says: he’s a ninja.
jarod says: hes going the distance
jarod says: hes going for speed
jarod says: *is listening to cake*
jess says: i thought you were talking about my fish

i don’t feel happy anymore.

i thought i’d blog because i’m happy right now and all of my blogs are like “hey look i’mbitching again.” anyway. i spent my drive home being all crazy and wanting to speed terribly. there was also a point in the night when i wanted to stop and jump off the topeka blvd. bridge. more for fun than death (i said it was happy.) it was just fun i was driving and playing random cds and screaming the lyrics with the windows down and watching everything happen and it was all so great.

i start working with svd next week. i can’t wait. she’s such a fun girl and gosh erin+me+svd, eric’s gonna regret that one.

willie nelson (the artist, not the dog) is coming to town in november. i want to go more than i’ve ever wanted to go to any thing else at tpac ever.

i guess my happy entry is just me rambling about really random shit. but i did find a new addiction to crossword puzzles today. oh god its fun. i almost finished the one in the kansan with erin tonight at work. i’m so sad that i wasn’t able to. but i suppose that it happens and i should just learn to deal with it.

everything is really crazy and rushing together right now. shrug.

we got a new foster-dog for a while. his name is willie nelson and he’s really cute and cuddly. he bites sort of though, but its really cute about him. i like him a lot. he’s nice and he sleeps at my feet right now. he’s keeping them warm. go him. he did try to eat my computer cord which would’ve been bad for both of us (it was plugged in at the time).

i’m really looking hard for some good hostees. if anyone knows of them or wants a subdomain themselves, send them my way. i’m a pretty decent hostess, so i think. i mean as long as you don’t try to eat my stuff i’ll let you have a bone (willie reference again.)

how cool is it that the dog is called willie nelson?

school was really fucking boring today. i couldn’t even get a good nap in. agh. i didn’t take too many hard stories for clipper though. i think i have one about alex/ali and a few editorials and a soccer story. soccer should be the hard one. but the editorials are easy enough.

i’m officially starting the leftist opinion site. i’m excited about it. its something to do when i don’t feel like doing what i should be doing (isn’t that all the time). i think it has a good opportunity of being a decent website though. and i’m going to link all the fun lefty sites too. thanks to riley for those.

i’ve been depressed today. i don’t have much else to add to that. who needs her meds? me. that’s right. there’s a new layout up though. go jess.

for the record, i do not have any school spirit. i did, however, come to school today. not skipping the pep assembly. while i stood in the back waiting to hand out clippers and didn’t actually sent in the stands i was there I WAS THERE and as clayton said today, “That’s about all we can expect out of you.” so go me for being there.

I gave Josh the book this morning, i wrapped it in an old clipper that had wade on the page and i wrote “happy birthday joshie” in a speech bubble out of wade’s mouth. josh was happy with the present. he had to give me a hug because he was so happy and he said that for my birthday i can expect al franken’s book. yay for al franken. and yay for josh appreciating liberal propaghanda. mweh-heh.

Its the first home game of my senior year and i’m not going. i might go next game but probably not, you never know. games are lame. i hate them. except i really love them cuz they’re fun and its cool outside and that’s really all that’s great about them but the sport is fun too. its just that i don’t like football players and the ones i do like don’t get to play. less kyle, whom i like. and i need to call eventually, but i’ve been saying that for years.

and the world series is just under 2 months away. YAY WORLD SERIES!. everything makes me want to laugh menancingly.

except that i was late for work. which was really lame. i woke up at 7:26 and was like “what time is it? is it really 7:26. fuck it’s 7:26” so i ran out of the house and went here and called on the way and almost wrecked into a truck because some terrorist in an f150 decided he should turn left when i was going straight and obviously speeding. asshole. bah. so i made it here alright which is the important thing and i was only about 10 minutes late and no one was mad. but i was still pissed. i’m sure it has something to do with my being up till 1 last night on the phone with the girl because she texted me at 12:30 and was all weird and the words “so i am letting you go” were in there in different orders and i was scared so i called and she was all “i’m breaking up with you, i just can’t do it.” and i started crying hysterically at which point she decided she wasn’t breaking up with me. so i got no good sleep last night. and then was tired all day.

dammit.