Category: Journal

joe and i celebrated valentine’s day one day early because we want to spend tomorrow engaged in warfare with small unsuspecting cities. it was grand. i got a big gorilla that i love very much and threatened to name Kyle after that boy from Mizzou that i’m convinced deserves rights (just some basic ones…) but I won’t really do that. it was just a craaazy joke. anyway. so the gorilla is nameless but it is very adorable and therefore i adore it. i will hopefully name it soon and then i will post pictures of it, probably on my facebook. sorry to all of you people outthere who can’t view my facebook photos. silly animal children. i also got a bunch of candy. like a toblerone. NEXT STOP, MY THIGHS! heh. and Joe got a new necklace cos his old one was broken but he wore it anyway and this one is nice and not leather, thanks to jesse. then i mixed him a cd with a bunch of beats from our favorite bands.

we also went and snagged indian food at the globe. delicious! and now we have plenty of palak paneer and aloo paneer for each of us. what’s the difference? cheese or potatoes, depending on which dish you ask. and we got the vegetable platter for apetizers and it was really effin delicious. though i prefer the vegetable korma over everything else. and i got really full of mint chutney which is nothing but good news. and we should’ve gotten bread other than nan but you can only do so much in one evening and would we really have eaten one of those pita things plus all of the rest of our food? Only science can answer that.

after dinner we went back to the apartment for a bit and then drove around so he could hear all of his mixed cd. we drove via i-70 to auburn road and then took that to Burlingame (via K-4) and then took US-56 to US-75 and 75 to carbondale where we drove around and almost got shot up by the police (with radar guns, oh no!) luckily we were not speeding and lynching was outlawed long ago. then we returned to topeka. it was great. and it hought that mormons were pacifists until i remembered they love guns a lot.

Sundays Adventure: Early mass and Lucas, Kansas. With Roger. Whether he likes it or not.

i have a huge crush on my microsuede blanket. it is the best purchase i have probably ever made. did i mention that i paid 99 for a king size blanket that was something like 275 in store (it includes shams and a bedskirt). heh. now we just need some curtains and things on the wall. fantastic.

joe’s parents renewed their vows in kc this weekend so we went up there. it’s nice because i really feel like part of their family. and they live in KCMO which means that seeing them is a great excuse to also see things like the plaza.

in last nights case it was seeing movies on the plaza. we went to see Transamerica which was effing brilliant. he didn’t think he’d like it and i think i had vaguely heard of it but basically got on the bandwagon to see it (the bandwagon was inhabited by me, alone, so i think it’s basically a soap box) because the flick looked arty and sorta gay. heh. it was such a good movie with lots of dry humor and it was basically about a road trip which joe and i are totally into.

i started my medicine this weekend too. it’s working! hoorah!

i cleaned the bedroom tonight but that was all i got to doing before i got tired and decided to clean the rest later. the nice thing about living with boys is you can be a ltitle messy and let things stay that way for a while without worrying too much.

so my fingers are starting to feel really soft on the keys. silly crazy pills.

I went grocery shopping today!! Whee! I got strawberry preserves and soup and rasberry preserves and a whole bunch of rice dishes and some frozen food that’s easy and then some other things. and i went to the asian market and gave the lady who works there the cross i got her back when I was in Poland and we talked about that trip and she said she would pray for me about Abu Dhabi which comforted me a lot. She’s such a nice person. There, I bought stuff to roll some sushi and some chopsticks and a bunch of my favorite ramen and also stuff to make tom yum soup. Delicious! I can’t wait. Now all I need to do is clean and life will be reordered. Fantastic.

Oh yah! And!!! Sean and Jotto came over today and we watched Korczak so we can give it back to Prasch. It was pretty awesome though we didnt’ get to finish the flick because Sean and Brandon’s arrival was late and slightly unexpected and so we have like 40 minutes left and then I made ramen for jotto and i. Jotto is no longer allowed to come over because I always cook for her. And I’m not her damn keeper. But I suppose I would be.

And besides, we were roommates. But not in the weird way.

Yesterday, Jeremy told me that I am like a small, female, bisexual Kyle. AWESOME! Its got to be the best compliment I’ve ever gotten. Ever.

I’m now accepting themes for my birthday party. I’m 20 this year. It’s got to be good.

i’ve found that the requests of various instructors in terms of how and what a primary source should offer to the student or the scholar of history makes it increasingly difficult for me to operate with each individual source in the same coherent paradigm.

spelling potato p-o-t-a-t-o-e is for losers. people who do it should be declared the enemy in some made-up, unwinnable war.

jotto came over tonight during my guitar lesson but she stayed till after it and we hung out for a long time and i cooked potatoes for her and joe. DELICIOUS. it was great news and i cleaned up some which is also good news.

my gash gush has started for this month which is mostly suckage in part because i had an allergic reaction to my crazy pills (the lamictal, specifically) last week so i’ve been completely unmedicated this week which has made me really moody and all-over the place. add to that minor symptoms of pre-period bitchiness and then turn all of it into todays “everything i could think to do would just disappoint me” mood and feeling of homeboundness due to cramps that make driving no fun and you can imagine how great i am to be around.

i am pretty much the hero of everyone i know.

ugh. in good news: i went to the shrink today and she gave me new drugs. it’s called like Gabitrel or something. hopefully it works so I can quit being all bipolar all the time.

so i decided today that my current knitting project which was going to be a very large scarf is now going to be a laptop case. exciting!

i went to see saul williams at borders in lawrence today with joe. he did a reading and a signing. i’m super glad we went because it turned out that it was awesome. i couldn’t go to the show at KU tonight and so we went to this as a supplement and then joe took my car and i snagged a ride to work with erin.

i think i need to be a poet, further, i think i need to find a revolution.

right now the revolution is in search of new beds.

w00t i’m back online. I think for good probably. We just got the internet in the apartment again because Jotto moving out took the internet away. Jerks. Now we’re all set up and i have complete access to all things electronic for a while now. I can’t even explain to you how happy I am. Whee.

That said, living without the internet was kind of cool too. I think Joe and I spent more time just speaking to each other instead of always playing games online and things which was cool and it was nice to not always be wrapped into the internet for the first few weeks of school. It lead to other adaptive things like journalling on paper which is fun cos I can carry my little moleskine notebook everywhere I go and journal whatever I think whenever I think it.

I’m feeling muchos better about debate. I’ve been pretty stable about picking up ballots and breaking and stuff. Now I just need to push myself in to deep outrounds and I have another two years in debate to become the best there ever was. And on the bright side, Washburn has been doing great in addition to me feeling like I really matter to the team. Sweetness. We did lock out our own tournament this weekend in Parli which is sweet but still at least a bit awkward. Luckily no one there minded. And we had fun and plenty of time to watch the superbowl.

How great is it, just to be alive?

okay is one thing i’m not.

i woke up this morning to the news that mckeithan had passed away after a heart attack during the night. i can’t even muster the words to say a prayer. i’m sorry if this is how you’re finding out. please call if you need anything.

i was supposed to go to state with him this weekend. and now i don’t really know that i am. i’m sort of in crazy denial. because mallory called and it just seemed like something someone might dream so it was pretty easy to be in denial about it but then i got a phone call from pam about an hour later and she verified that the news was true so i guess that’s it you know…

man.

and i was supposed to tell him how well i did this weekend and he would’ve been so proud of me because he gets my competitiveness and everything. man. at least he didn’t suffer too much. like, i’m sure it hurt, but i’m also sure that suffering for a long period of time would’ve been worse and he never would’ve wanted that.

i’m so sorry to everyone who loved him like i do. i’m serious about the calling. maybe we could have a felicity marathon. i bet that’s what he’d want us to do.