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apparently creighton does have a gsa. which makes me a little less worried about going there and getting kicked out for being a dyke. lol. not that i’m that dykey. but still. id hate for their to be a scandal. god bless the catholics for being progressive.
i survived today. i ended up not doing scholars bowl as that was scheduled over two of my already conflicting events and so i had to say no. but i’m kind of sad cos it was the last meet… clipper went alright. we were there until 10:07. blast. but that’s not so bad considering we only had about 3 full class periods to work. arugh. i also went to lexington for youth council this afternoon and had a really nice time. i’m usually kind of uncomfortable around older people cos i haven’t had grandparents since i was 8 but it wans’t that bad there.
poetry and prose is back. its available through the portfolio link (3rd picture of the eye right now). just keep scrolling through the journal stuff on that page and then you’ll get to the poetry/prose stuff.
i’ve realized that having you in my dreams means that there is something wrong and i need comfort. i dreamt last night that i was in this horror house place and it was flooding and there was someone chasing me with a knife and trying to kill me and you were the only good thing. period. everyone else was trying to kill me and shrutti was possessed. it was awful. but you were like my protecter. the smart person that i could follow because i wasn’t strong enough to save myself. i’m glad i know you.
that’s about all i have to say. except shoutoutz lol. i mean thank yous. to madlin, erik, and thomas for calling me. r0ck. you three are the best. and also thanks to jarod for taking my sobbing phone call(s). i’m sorry about those :-/.
two of my dogs are really sick. howie and buttons have been out of it all day so mom is taking them to the vet and i just hope they’re okay and we don’t have to put them down or anything. cos htey’re both really good dogs. and i like them a lot. and it would be sad if they had to die. :-/ erhm. i hope they’re okay.
i quallified for state forensics today (rox0rz!). it was another bad situation though. i took 1st at WaRu.. but i was announced as having taken 5th place. and i was pissed cos i thought i spoke all kinds of fabulous. i didn’t even fucking bounce my damned gestures. pish. anyway. i got ballots back on the bus and read them and they went 1-2-2-2-4. and i was like WTF! how was it even possible that someone could take 5th in a round with those scores. fuck. i marched hostily to mckeithan and was like “hey how did i take 5th!? 1-2-2-2-4! that can’t take 5th!” and he was like “i’ll go find out” so he was gone and i bitched a whole lot about how morons were running the tournament (but not alissa.. cos tony blair is her superhero/celebritycrush lol) and then mckeithan came back out and was like “you took 1st.” i guess what happened is that they were using spread sheets on computers in tab. for the nongeek that means that that were putting them on spreadsheets and then using sort to figure out who was first. like just sorting by the totals column (i assume) and then writing them down based on who won. however, they found that this was a bad idea because i guess some of the columns didn’t get selected right or their was a flaw in their spreadsheet or something. cos mckeithan showed them the ballots and they were like “oh shit.” so they troubleshooted, figured out what the problem was and realized i was first. in which case it turned out good for me. but it turned out that my friend jonathan whom i like a lot was in 6th but announced 2nd. which sucks cos jonathan is such a nice guy. dammit. and he’s from west. which means i screwed west over, again. motherfucker.
i took 2nd in ld last night which was cool but there were only 6 of us and most of them were novices. so i suppose its not really worth mentioning. but i did get to talk to the guy i debated in finals and it turns out he’s hella-cool. we spent most of the weekend when we weren’t in rounds pacing and talking to each other. it was nice. who knew people fun like that came out of lansing. lol.
well i got my ld cases done and i filed a whole bunch for ix. i realized that i’m not going to be able to get mrs. chamberlain to sign a recommendation form and mail a letter herself and i really don’t have time so i’m not going to apply for the zonta scholarship. its only 100 dollars dammit. but maybe i should do it. i don’t know. i’ll figure something out. maybe i could run by the school or have mom do it when she gets back into town tomorrow night after taking me to the tournament and then it could be mailed. i don’t know. i really don’t know. i’m kinda freaking out i swear.
i changed some things about the site. i added brittney to the constitution. and i added a site icon cos i decided that those are really hardcore and i had to have one. thanks to jarod for the code to do that. also, i’m going to put the disclaimer link in the corner of this page and see if i can’t change the navigation up a bit. but i’ll get that done eventually. right now i need to print some ld stuff and then sleep.
i talked to madeline for a long time last night and we got along really well. that always makes me happy when she and i talk and we don’t fight.
school’s been cancelled again. hooray. it gives me lots more time to get all that shit i have to do done. so far the ld cases are mostly outligned the essays haven’t been thought about and the phone calls are like half-made. dammit.
i also talked to amelia for a while last night. now i feel like this :-/. shrug.
mom and i got into a fight about college yesterday and after screaming at her for not being able to deal with anything and instead just yelling about it and how she should talk about her feelings not yell about random things.. she finally admitted that the reason she’s been being so cunty is that she feels bad that they can’t afford to send me to whatever college i want to go to. mom is silly. i don’t care if they can afford whatever college i want. its better that i have to work for things.
i have a lot to do tonight but i thought i’d at least drop in for a bit. arugh. i need to write some more scholarship essays.. make a bunch of phone calls about youth council stuff.. apply to smurthwaithe.. get my math done.. write my ld case.. finish my new oration (or polish up the old one..) and work on uploaded diary archives from feb ’01 to like august of ’03. what a fucking long time to have archives from yo. but i’ll be nice to have them once i actually get them done.
in other news. i said a couple funny things today that i was impressed about. and lacey made me luagh too which was nice. lol. we were talking about marriage and how we’d kind of like to wait till we’re like 30 at least. and i was talking about how i told thomas that once and she said “well thomas probably freaked out cos he’s a few days away from 30.” lol. (he’s not 30. he’s 21)
last night j. and i got into a spat. i don’t really know what else to call it cos it wasn’t really a fight but i guess i upset him and he didn’t tell me about it so i didn’t know about it when it happened. anyway though i’m still a little upset about the whole thing cos i really wish that he would’ve just told me he was upset instead of not talking to me. i don’t know. i’m just afraid of being close to people and when i actually feel kind of close to someone and then they do something that proves to me that they don’t feel completely comfortable talking to me i draw away. but i guess he didn’t mean to do that. and we talked about it and its okay now. i was just disappointed that he couldn’t just talk to me about it when i upset him.
god save the queen. i think that’s an interesting article. i hope it makes it to the supreme court and limon wins. dammit.
i put up a new layout, rock. i’m very very excited about this one. i still need to work on the archiving pages and stuff.. oh and there are navigation at the right of the blog. maybe i’ll label that as well. i don’t know. anyway though… its all done and i’m happy with it so that’s all that i have to say. i got some things done today. i still need to write a bunch of essays though. fuck fuck fuck. because i have all that scholarship stuff due soon and i won’t be home tomorrow night to do it. so i figure i’ll just get it done right now and then i’ll be okay. hm.
