Author: Jess

i move out tomorrow. right now i have tons of tension in my back but i think that’s just because. but its to the point that i can’t really ignore it. argh. i hate it. i guess mom and the family and i are going to go out to breakfast then buy my microwave and tv and then move in. should be fun? eh. yah.

last night lacey and i went to lawrence and had drinks at Free State Brewery then walked to the train station to see Kerry come through. first we went to the long one. which was no big deal cos we were just walking and we got to walk over the river which was fun because water is pretty even when it does make up one of the most polluted rivers in the us. and we were with brian, sam, and spin who were friends of friends or on the campaign. brain/sam were very cool. they’ll be a senior and a junior at washburn this year and they were giving us advice most of the night. it was nice to get to know some boys i wouldn’t usually get to know.

after we got the right train station we stood in the crowd for a while then decided to walk down the tracks (via sidewalk) a ways. we were sitting around waiting for the train to go through and i called colby who was there with taylor/leandra. they came down and we talked for a little while. it was nice to see colby. when the first train (not the kerry train) went through, Sam and I were heading to his car to get a jacket for me cos i was freezing but the train went through so we went back to the huge group of people and i just stole body warmth.

we were by the people with signs that said “kerry kills” and “bush = kerry” and they had reasons why like “they’re pro free trade, anti gay marriage, etc etc” and signs that said “war is never justified”. so ia sked the kerry kills sign girl if she endorsed anyone. and she shrugged and said no. so she was an anarchist. which is stupid. because anarchy is like extremely free trade. anarchy is no marriage. and along the lines of the “war is never justified” kids.. you’re white. you’re standing on american soil. your ancestors killed native americans to stand there. unless you are in some way taking responsibility for these actions.. shutthefuckup.

the kerry train just drove by. but kerry was on the back deck of it so we got to see him. and it was very rally-esque. i felt like a democrat. lots of adrenaline. call me a dork, but i thought it was exciting. even if they didn’t stop.

we went to munchers/java break following the station then we went to miles’ house and had a lot of intellectually stimulating conversation about a plethora of thigns. like not voting for nancy boyda, anarchism, communism, st thomas acquinas, language, and the peace corps.

i got home at 4. mom’s mad because i got home at 3. but hey. what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her.

i’m uber excited about college.

so you’ve all noticed i’m sure that csnet has been down for a few days. i guess it got back up yesterday? it went down sunday. and stayed there monday. this is the fault, i guess, of dr2.net my host for not renewing it soon enough. but it wasn’t that big of a deal because only my url expired.. nothing else and now its back up and i get a free year of this domain. so rock on. and go me. expect a new layout soon. its all in my head right now. which is too bad cos i do really like this one and its been good for the summer but i’ve had it up for so long! i mean, goodness.

the election was yesterday. it was a good time. except that iw orked 17.5 hours. which is well more than i needed to be working. it started at 6am and i basically just sat on the phones until 9 pm and then they sent me out to pick something up and i royally fucked it up so then cindy and i went back out. i really like cindy. and all of the people there. they’re equally wonderful. i think i’m going to miss it. i’ll probably especially miss eric. because he’s been the most fun and we’re about the same age and close enough in personality that we really get along. i told him yesterday that we should go out for sushi sometime because we both like it and its rare that someone finds another sushi-lover in kansas. so hopefully we won’t lose touch. at the very least he’s going to washburn too so i’ll have to hunt him around campus a little.

i move out on sunday. or move in. i can’t decide which it is. prolly moving in. i have all my shit packed. in liqour boxes. that’s how beautiful mom is. she goes to get me boxes to pack in and they’re all from a liquor store. here’s the filing system: bottoms in lord calvert; tshirts in jack daniels; nice shirts in budweiser; pajamas in bud light; hoodies in mgd. hiss.

i also bought my books the other day. which wasn’t that big of a fiasco . thank god. and then today my car broke. which will be expensive but i called and bitched about the price and it magically came down 40 dollars from what they told me to what they told my mom. lol. car fixer places are so funny. i asked if i could buy the part myself. they said no. then they said that the part was only about 60 anyway. and i asked what the hell they were charging me for then. so then he was like “well let me go see how much it will be…” and he said 233. and mom had said 270. bitches.

i’m really fucking pissed about my car. but on the bright side of things: madeline had an interview for a job today and she thinks it went well. oh yippee yi ki yay. hooray.

i talked to my roomate today. trena. she seems really cool. i’m not worried about it at all now. well i still am a little. she said that she really likes jessica simpson. lol. i said i’m addicted to the ashlee simpson show. lol. (especially after she dyed her hair, yum). but you know. she seems nice and she’s excited about school and she said she’s pre-med. so that means i may not see her for long periods of time. lol. in the event that it doesn’t work out. i really think it will though.

my brother bailed on the braid+guk+murderbydeath (and others?) show. but madeline is going in his place so it looks like its all okay anyway. i’m just exhausted today and i’m hoping i’ll be more alert tomorrow. i’m gonna go to madsee’s to pick her up after work tomorrow and we can always crash for a little while if i need to (she’s always game for sleeping). lol. i’m super excited. cos i’ve been saying all summer that i’d go when the damn show was in town. and now it is and i am actually going. i wanna mosh. so i guess guk is just gonna have to pick up the pace then. lol.

i received roommate info in the mail today. hooray. im so excited now. i just need to talk to her at some point. i tried to call around 5 when i got the letter but there was no answer, or ringing either for that matter. eep. i’m really excited about the whole mess. mostly the not working for elections anymore. although ill miss the people there. especially eric and peachy. they’ve made it a lot more fun. everyone else is pretty great too though. argh. i’m working and i think i’m gonna try to read more of the 9/11 commission report. and try not to melt up in here. its damn hot.

so i’m completely in love with bill clinton. and hilary clinton too, for that matter. i just can’t help myelf. and everyone’s known it all along, haven’t they? i bet so. i just… augh. i wish i could not work tomorrow and the next day so that i could stay home and sleep and watch the convention. yummy. not to mention the politics part is pretty cool too. i guess this means its okay that joshie is gone this week cos i’m busy being a democrat anyway.

speaking of josh and politics… last weekend he and i went out to pts on friday. and we saw the bourne surpremacy. PTs was filled with tons of philosophical political talk partially on the part of me about how i think the country needs to uphold certain universal values and then find policies that best support them. i think we should always be trying to maximize life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. because those are the most obvious values that the US would try to uphold. it was a good conversation. i like josh cos he keeps my mind working. intellectual stimulation is important.

linda (woman i work with) does not support women in the military. she says that there are just tons of reasons why that shouldn’t be. i said that i think that women should be in the military because if there are reasons why women shouldn’t be then dammit men shouldn’t either. and she said that women are weaker. and i said that the army doesn’t draft by strength as it is. and that women’s lesser strength is mostly due to our sociological conditioning that a weak women is goddamn sexy. i also told of my trouble attempting to register with selective service. linda said i was brainwashed by the feminist movement. i said that i wasn’t alive for the feminist movement. she says it still happens today. i don’t think it does as strong as it should you know? there’s still so far for us to go. i never contended that i get alone with linda anyway so this debate didn’t really bother me. peachie said she thought it was good that i tried to register for the draft. so there.

i bought braid, moneen, the get up kids, and murder by death tickets today. take that bitches. i can’t wait!! its friday at 9 which means that i’ll leave town around 8:15 or so. maybe earlier. devon is going with me. i’m glad he gets to go to concerts even though he’s young.. cos i never got to and that was really lame. although it pisses me off that parents are generally stricter with the older kids. so parents: don’t do that.

slash me waves goodbye while drooling over bill clinton on tv. i miss his state of the unions.

i bought towels that are bright orange and a pink box and an orange box and a white foldable hamper and a pink shower tote thing. even though i share a shower with only three other girls… i guess its still necessary to have my own bag thing for the process.

i’m so excited about college. no joke. i want to move out and have fun and KNOW WHO MY ROOMMATE IS (i still don’t) and all kinds of stuff. i’m giddy. in other news: i only work late on wednesday this week. and i only work at the cap-j on tuesday/saturday. so its a pretty happy day/week. because i really wanted to go to the braid concert on friday and now i’m going to. i’m just gonna come home and take a longass nap before i go out. then devon/maybe-madeline/and i are gonna go to lawrence. hooray.

i scored bedding after work today. it’s pink and orange and really bright and fun. i totally dig it.

so i went shopping for bedding for the dorms today. it turned out rather well. what i want most is this really pretty pink duvet set and a down comforter from target and kohls, respectively. if that doesn’t work out then i’m going for just a quilt and the down comforter, or something from kohls. either way. i’m uberexcited about college and moving out and all of the whole mess. and we are going to st. louis now. because dad thinks its really important that we go and i REALLY FUCKING WANT TO GO to that wedding. yippee skippee. i can’t wait.

yesterday i went out with madeline for most of the afternoon, i needed to purchase a new watch, which i did. the rest of the time we just hung out and enjoyed the rainy weather that became sunny. we went to hasting where i swapped my old, unauthorized 911 commission report for the new, authorized one. i didn’t have the receipt which was unfortunate but they were understanding, and i managed to save about 6.93 which was returned to me via giftcard. which means josh and i can mission shop to spend the 6.93. lol. cos its not like i can just have it back. anyway, madseee and i also went to pts where i drank chamomile with milk and honey (which is my new favorite drink of all time).. yum! and then we went to the park and listened to ani for a while. it was really nice. i completely miss seeing her. even though now we get to see each other so much more than we did my junior/senior year. i guess mom got a lot better about lettings us hang out right before we broke up.. but idk. she still wasn’t happy about it. but i’ve seen her at least once a week for the past month and sometimes even more. and i’m glad we’re getting along so well. things were just so bad for so long. it totally sucked. and that’s the biggest understatement of my life.

i also went out for dinner/breakfast (12am ihop) with thomas. cos we were both online with nothing to do. that was a nice time. i haven’t seen him in so long (since spring break) and it was fun to go out just the two of us. we always had such a good time when we hung out together.

jarod called after talking to me online last night too. apparently amy fucked him over (for the second time this week) which is really too bad. because i genuinely like amy but she treats him so bad sometimes. and its harder for him cos he does care about her so much. his phone call gave me the chance to talk about why we broke up with him too. i think it was a pretty necessary conversation. and now i feel like i could post my blog about that whole subject but i don’t think i will for a while.

<ramp> jess jess, tell me stories
<static> okay. once upon a time there was a beautiful princess who was locked up in a castle high above the ground. on a mountain. and there was this dragon. and the dragon had scales but he couldn’t breathe fire. so he just bought matches. and that’s how he killed the princess.
<roach> what a pussy weak ass dragon
<static> he came from a rich family.
<roach> lol

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